It doesn’t matter if you’ve fallen many times
It doesn’t matter if you’ve been cheated
It doesn’t matter if people have gone away
It doesn’t matter if you were defeated
It does matter how you behave under stress
It does matter to pick yourself up after a fall
It does matter you take responsibility
It does matter who stands by you through it all
It doesn’t matter what hurtful words people say
It doesn’t matter if you’ve been lied to
It doesn’t matter if things change
It doesn’t matter if the world doesn’t revolve around you
It does matter how you handle situations
It does matter to enjoy joyful things
It does matter to be more careful
It does matter to focus on what happiness brings
Our World
This is the world we live in
Every feeling & thought is shared
Every second in life clicked or posted
Even intimate moments aren’t spared
Relationships are made through social networking
People are stalked, observed and fussed over
New bonds are made, old ones restored
What’s that? A hidden side to your partner you discover!
How dependent we’ve become on technology!
We complain about no time for new things
Wiling away time instead of conversing
Forgetting the joy, peace and excitement it brings
Children are little adults waiting to grow up
No longer are they allowed to wander or be idle
Play time, hobbies, friends don’t exist
Futures are laid out once they hit the cradle
Aged people try to be independent
Their world revolves around their kids company
Kids are too busy with their lives to care
So parents end up confined to their TV
This is the world we live in
Taking everything in life for granted
Forgetting ties, reality, living life
We're connected yet so disconnected!
My Dream
In my dream I see us getting closer.
I see us loving each other like never before.
We are dancing to songs in each others arms.
This what we wanted we are so sure.
Making sure there’s nothing between us to hide,
I stand by you feeling lucky to be your wife.
Being each others lifelong friend & guide.
Together, going through the ups and downs of life.
In this dream we are happy n content,
Solving problems without any fuss
Having no regrets or reasons to repent.
For life’s been good to us
Giving us happiness well deserved.
We live our lives starting and ending with another
Grateful for all between us we preserved
Never letting that flame diminish for each other
The Heart
The heart is the most fragile organ of all
It can forgive through love the greatest of crimes.
It can withstand so many things even a terrible fall
It can be broken and pieced together many a times
It speaks through the eyes from the soul
It is the feeling which writers speak of
It loses all senses and spirals out of control
When the heart is given to someone we love
You may doubt decisions of the heart
The brain is then ignored and loses its power
This is what ends up being the best part
A new world is shown, the old one it will devour.
Hearts can be exchanged from one soul to another
Be careful when something like this happens
It can be lost if you try too hard to smother
Leaving behind lives lived without passions.
A heart in love beats in a body no longer its own
It's kept in your care until the time is right
Something unconditional is felt and shown
Don’t let this go without a proper fight
Awkward
His heart is beating rapidly by the second. He starts wondering if he’s going to have a heart attack. At twenty seven is it possible? It probably is. Nothing surprises him anymore. He looks around to see if anyone can see how nervous he is. Of course, no one in the vast room takes note of how agitated he really is. There’s so much noise. How will he find his voice and tell what he feels in all this ruckus?
She looks at him in between deciding what to order and asks, “Are you ok? You look kind of lost.”
He replies, “Of course. I’m just tired.”
After placing the order she rambles on about small talk and he relaxes as he enjoys watching her talk.
Why does he love her so much? Is it her big brown eyes? Her straight silky brown hair? Her full lips? She has a good body not enough to be considered hot but definitely enough to make heads turn if she decides that is what she wants.
She can still make heads turn even without dressing up. She's beautiful. But that's not the reason why he loves her. He believes it’s her simplicity, her honesty, her desire to have fun and to enjoy the moment that made him fall in love with her. She is in so many ways what he wanted in his woman yet in so many ways she’s not. Her carefree yet caring nature can make even the most stone hearted peoples demeanor change. He notices he’s been silent for too long. He does what he’s good at, asking open ended questions and allowing her to talk some more, “How’s work?”
She responds with a frown in mid sentence and shrugs. Flicking a strand of stray hair from her ponytail. Yes, she still ties a ponytail. Something which most girls refuse to do in public now. She starts talking about work and the ‘torture’ that’s inflicted on her with such animosity one would think she works for Hitler himself.
Dinner is served and she speaks some more about work but starts commenting on the food as if she is an expert cook herself. He had the misfortune of tasting a dish she had made and swore to never give her that chance to cook again. Not if he wanted to live to see another day.
He smiles at her some more remembering the time they had spent together in the kitchen when she was boasting about her culinary skills. He watches her animated expressions when she starts talking about things. She is so different from all the cardboard people he has to talk to day in and day out. She suddenly asks a question out of the blue, “Why is it that you don’t have a girlfriend?”
He’s stunned at this sudden change in the conversation.
“Why? What do you mean why? It’s because I haven’t-“
“Yes, yes, haven’t met the right girl yet. God! Is that the only excuse you guys can come up with? I mean. Come on! There are a million girls out there. I’m sure one of them is worthy of being your girlfriend material. Or did you chicken out and never confess what you feel to any girl?”
He blushes slightly.
“What crap! I would never chicken out. I mean, if you can find me a girl who’s like you then I’ll surely make her my girlfriend. Heck, I’d make her my wife!” He says with a wink.
It’s now her turn to blush.
“Oh please! Stop with this crap. Just tell me the real reason.”
He looks at her for a second then looks away. He starts thinking about how much he wants this woman in front of him. How much he wants to touch her, hold her, kiss her, and spend every day with her. He wants to be able to call her his. He wants to share the ups and downs of life with her. Be there to wipe her tears, be the reason for her to smile. He wants to be the one she turns to for help, advice, and companionship. He wants to see her first thing in the morning looking so innocent and unfazed by the day. He wants to be there hugging her to sleep squeezing her problems away. He wants her to be his wife, the mother of his children, the woman he can grow old with. He wants to be her everything, just like she is his everything.
She watches him lost in thoughts as he looks out of the window.
“Hello! What’s wrong with you? I asked you a question. How about answering it this century?”
“Well, the real reason I guess is that I don’t want to have a girlfriend because the one I want is someone I can’t have.”
“You little wuss! There’s no such thing as ‘someone I can’t have' you need to grow a pair and tell the girl you love her.”
He looks at her intensely in silence.
She opens her mouth to say something but just stops.
There’s a moment of silence.
The waiter clears their plates. Watches them look at each other then asks, “Would you like dessert?”
There’s still silence. She looks at the waiter and nods a no.
“Should I get the cheque sir?”
He nods without removing his eyes off of her.
She shifts in her chair. Looks around the restaurant and starts talking about something random.
He looks at her sadly and fakes a smile pretending to listen to her. She insists on splitting the bill and they get ready to leave so he can drop her back home.
There’s a stifling aura throughout the drive back home. She turns the radio on. Fiddles with it for sometime then switches it off cursing as to how there’s never anything good on it. She tries her best to keep a conversation going between them but he continues to remain silent and make it a one sided effort.
They reach her house. They sit in silence. Before she gets out of his car, she looks at him, clears her throat and says, “I’m sure there are a lot of girls out there that would want to be with you. I know whoever you end up with will be a very lucky girl. It’s late; I have to call up my sweetie and get up early for work tomorrow. Take care. See you around.”
He stares at her with hurt in his eyes and watches her grimace some more under his gaze. He realizes that he’s said too much. A sinking feeling in his heart takes place. Suddenly there’s not enough air for him to breathe. He watches her get out of the car a little too quickly. She doesn’t turn back to wave goodbye as she always does. He accepts with a broken heart that she’s probably not going to see him again after today.
The Love Effect
Isn’t it funny how when you’re in love,
You get through the darkest times smiling
And you feel blessed from the Lord above?
The feelings love evoke is like no other,
You can’t ignore it, it’s too strong
And you realize there’s so much to discover
Nothing anyone does or says hurts you anymore,
You are protected by someone specials love
You share a special bond, an easy rapport.
Where was he all these years you ask?
You took for granted what you had,
Realizing he’s yours to claim was a task.
When you find your love, keep him happy,
It’s difficult but it can be done.
Otherwise you lose all and make life crappy.
That special person is a blessing in disguise.
You are showered with all their love
All the hate pent up inside suddenly dies.
Love has a way to mend a broken heart,
You need to give it away cautiously
Otherwise someone will pierce it with a dart.
Lessons of life
In life there is many a lesson to learn,
Trust once lost, is difficult to earn.
The path to forgiveness is filled with challenges,
Evil triumphs good and tips scales of balances.
Try as you may to win hearts back,
They may turn away from you with such tact.
Life goes on without them,
Cut them out of your life from the stem.
Others will value and cherish you,
They will stand by and be true.
Hold on to these people with all your might.
They will support you day and night.
Friends and family get you through it all
They pick you up when you take a fall.
A life without love is not worth living.
A heart should be one that’s giving.
When the good times fade and bad ones come
Remember darkness will fade because of the sun.
Life isn’t a straight line it’s a curve.
With twists and turns be careful when you swerve.
People and friends will come and go.
Learn not to get upset, go with the flow.
No one is worth the pain they put you through.
Just thank God coz from it you learnt, you grew.
Cry, laugh, smile, dance.
Open your heart, today, take a chance.
Reality
Occasions stop mattering when the ones you love aren’t there,
The times you take for granted are now moments you wish to share.
They could be simple things like talking and brushing each others hair.
Those are unforgettable memories you have with people you care.
Nothing is good without them not even the air.
You can’t survive alone, you were always a pair.
Those people can’t be replaced because they’re unique & rare.
Such changes in life make things unfair.
The distance and separation is something you can’t bear.
You would always stay in touch is what you declare.
Things will change so be careful, beware.
Those relationships made you grow, realize, become aware.
Your future will now be without them and that gives you a scare.
These things are ‘normal’ so do something, prepare!
You try to keep in touch, you promise, you swear.
When you see them again, it’s damage which can’t undergo repair.
You sit in a room feeling uncomfortable in your chair.
Once best friends now you just look helpless and stare.
Sitting in silence playing a boring game of solitaire.
Any topic spoken becomes offensive causing a glare.
You reflect on the bond you had and constantly compare.
You felt reality won’t affect you, your love it will spare.
The void eats away at you and cuts, it’s a permanent tear.
Someday
Someday he’ll call and his ego will fall,
He’ll wish this would end and he will have a friend.
Someday he’ll realize what he’s missing after he’ll socialize
He’ll meet many more people and his sorries will seem feeble.
Someday he’ll look back and the guilt will attack.
He’ll be lost and I won’t come back at any cost.
Someday he’ll pass all our places and remember then make faces.
He’ll wish he didn’t leave in a hurry coz the past he can’t bury.
Someday he’ll be alone regretting this friendship he had thrown.
He’ll wish I was with him and he’ll only admit it to his kin.
Someday he’ll grow up and upset as I am I wish him good luck.
He’ll never know what he meant to me, he was one my best friends you see.
Someday he’ll move on and wish he hadn’t gone.
He’ll feel the pain he caused when he left, then my feelings he’ll feel in depth.
The WHY? DAMN IT!! WHY??! Situations
These situations are not personal experiences but observations:
- You apply a cakey layer of sun block seeing the scorching sun only to step out and have the weather become all cloudy!
- You wear white the day it suddenly rains.
- You take a shortcut only to be stuck in traffic.
- You walk in on someone close to you making out and the image scars you for life.
- You get confused when asked to make a decision and find out the first choice was the right one.
- You get caught lying/stealing!
- You order what seems to be the best on the menu and find out sewer water would taste better…N it wouldn’t cost u this much either!
- You see a hot guy/girl who you hope will notice you but instead notices your friend!
- You move to a queue which seems shorter and has people with less items to pay for but it backfires. Those in the longest queue move faster than you.
- You shop till you drop and then a week later there’s a bloody sale everywhere!
- You end up wearing shoes the day you need to go and shop and struggle to get in and out of clothes.
- You get a trial room without so much as an ounce of air circulating in it.
- Despite being educated, you freak out when you see official forms like Form 16…Tax declarations, etc.
- You realize in between commercials you spent a good 1 hour watching a crappy movie and missed the beginning of a good one. Hence, you continue watching the crappy one!
- You trust someone and they end up stabbing you in the back.
- You diet/exercise/practically kill yourself trying to lose weight and find out you GAINED mysterious weight instead of losing it!
- You spend good money on something only to find out it’s a waste.
- You take hours shopping only to have styles go out of fashion within weeks.
- You come out from the sultry heat only to have no electricity in your house.
- You look back at hideous pictures and ask parents WHY?! DAMN IT!! WHY?? was I looking like that??
Midnight Insight
O memories of midnight,
you come haunt me everyday
When the mind should be resting
You awaken it by reviving dormant thoughts.
Have I not served you,
diligently evading sleep?
You stay when you're unwanted
You forget me when I sit idle.
My thoughts never leave me
I'm stuck, replaying what was.
Can one run away from memories?
Does blocking the pain avoid the suffering?
I am lost, wandering in a world not understood.
How do I break free?
Night after night I wait for a change
Hoping I don’t have to
Relive, reflect and reminisce
Here By Me - 3 Doors Down
"Here By Me"
I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you
The things I thought you’d never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you…
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
I can’t take another day without you
‘Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
But everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love…
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
As the days grow long I see
That time is standing still for me
When you’re not here
Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you
The things I thought you’d never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you…
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
I can’t take another day without you
‘Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
But everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love…
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
As the days grow long I see
That time is standing still for me
When you’re not here
Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
Is Khadar Pyaar Hai.
Is kadar pyaar hain tumse ae humsafar
Is kadar pyaar hain tumse ae humsafar
Ab to jeete hain hum bas tumhe dekhkar
Tumhari har ada tumhari har nazar
Yeh kya kehne lagi tumhe hain kya khabar
Is kadar pyaar hain tumse ae humsafar
Ab to jeete hain hum bas tumhe dekhkar
Dil mein hain betabiyan neend udne lagi
Tere khayalon se hi aankh judne lagi
Har pal tumko dekha maine
Kehti hain meri nazar
Tumhari har ada tumhari har nazar
Yeh kya kehne lagi tumhe hain kya khabar
Is kadar pyaar hain tumse ae humsafar
Ab to jeete hain hum bas tumhe dekhkar
Sasoon mein basne lagi jabse tu ho jaane jaan
Apna sa lagne laga mujhko saara jahan
Mehka mehka lagta mujhko
Khushiyo se dil ka nagar
Tumhari har ada tumhari har nazar
Yeh kya kehne lagi tumhe hain kya khabar
Is kadar pyaar hain tumse ae humsafar
Ab to jeete hain hum bas tumhe dekhkar
Tumhari har ada tumhari har nazar
Yeh kya kehne lagi tumhe hain kya khabar
A friend indeed!
When friends go missing from your life,
You stand by and watch helpless
They just walk out and don’t think twice.
They end up breaking your heart.
It hurts so badly, it cuts like a knife,
They become selfish & careless.
They’re downright rude & not nice.
Warning! Don’t befriended them from the start.
They refuse to talk and resolve the strife,
They ignore, bad mouth and become shameless.
All this because you refused to be their wife.
They think they’re too good for you & over smart!
They suck your blood worse than lice,
The pain is so sharp it leaves you breathless.
That’s the cost of ‘friendship’, now pay the price.
They wait and pierce your heart with a dart.
They have nothing to offer you except vice,
The torment you feel makes you wonder if it’s endless.
They split your insides then gnaw at ‘em like mice.
Then dispose off you like rotten vegetables from a cart.
They have hearts of stone & souls of ice.
They take your heart & behave reckless,
Saying sorry is what they feel will suffice.
They destroy your trust, that’s the worst part.
God sent
I always use to find love a mystery.
I felt it before but never with such intensity.
I'm so much wiser and stronger now.
I put in efforts & am not a lazy cow.
I won't take you for granted.
Or live in a land enchanted.
I'm so much wiser and stronger now.
I put in efforts & am not a lazy cow.
I won't take you for granted.
Or live in a land enchanted.
I will stand by and support you in every way,
Make me yours, let's not delay.
The way you make me smile no one else can,
You're different, not just any other man.
You have a heart of gold,
caring, loving, unique, bold.
I can't imagine life without you anymore,
I'm yours now, I promised my heart and swore.
You're an amazing mix of innocent and mature,
You have a soul untouched, so pure.
I feel this love that runs through my veins,
comes once in a lifetime then everything does change.
You make my soul feel loved & content.
You're my love, the one who God sent.
Lucky me
You opened up your heart to me & I will guard it forever.
Protecting you from all & letting harm hurt you never.
I will love you much more than I do till the day I die,
I will go against any challenge for you, no matter what I will defy.
These words I pen are not just words to please your heart,
These words come from my soul, my being, every part.
I'm so lucky to love my best friend,
You don't judge me or use a tone that condescends.
How did I get a man who is so perfect for me?
I can't believe you will be mine, my handsome would be.
Unanswered
When is it you miss me the most?
Do you pass by the places we visited?
Am I real then or a shadow or a ghost?
Do you see me in your sleep?
Are we together and happy?
Is our love still strong and deep?
Do you think of me when you are busy at work?
Are you daydreaming about me then?
Do you remember and hide a little smirk?
Do you picture me whenever you hear my voice?
Do you pine to be near me as I do you?
Would you have done it all differently if given a choice?
Don't you think it's amazing, giving us a shot?
Do you go with friends and wish I was with you?
Will you still be mine no matter what?
My man
This voice I listen to everyday comes from a man I adore,
He's gentle,understanding, funny, I couldn't ask for more.
He stands by me even when I make mistakes,
He'll not do anything to cause any heart aches.
In his love I can feel myself change,
He makes me feel better about myself, not strange.
How can one feeling do so much?
How can I not feel special with that warm touch?
Your love has taught me more than you know,
I'm different now coz you helped me grow.
I love you so much my best friend,
My love for you has no beginning, no end.
Zombie
Walking around in a city that's dead,
I remember how it was when we had first met.
Spring had just started
Love was in the air.
Soon you departed,
like you didn't care.
Was there a reason for breaking my heart?
Or did you think you were being smart?
I moved on with time,
living my life without you.
It wasn't an easy climb,
I wish the past I could undo.
You didn't deserve my love or affection,
you're like a bad disease, an infection.
Have you've realized what you've lost?
Does it even matter?
I will never come back to you at any cost.
I don't wanna see my head & heart splatter.
now you walk around in a city that's dead,
remembering how it was when we had first met.
Amazing you.
It's amazing how you mended my broken heart,
Never a romantic,
waking up feeling your love in me is the best part.
I look forward to talking to you each day,
These feelings aren't semantic,
Memories I remember, relive and replay.
I want to be where you are,
with you forever,
I am your morning star.
You can lift me up in my lowest of lows.
I'm so glad we're together
amongst all, it's me that you chose.
You're the reason I feel free again,
I smile, I dance.
your love runs through me in every vein.
My feelings are clear, on display,
Is this a dream perchance?
You complete me in every way
My Mr. Perfect
I have never come across a man as perfect as you,
who stands by me even if things go askew.
You're the epitome of what every man should be,
this love of ours will always last this I can foresee.
I haven't put you on a pedestal if that's what you think,
I just love you like crazy, no, I don't need a shrink. :)
You're everything I always wanted in my man,
you care for me, know me, you understand.
You've made the happiest and luckiest woman alive,
I'll do whatever it takes to make us last and survive.
There's no me without you,
you're like a dream come true.
When you love me I lose myself in you,
this love I now feel I can never undo.
Realization
Being next to you all these days made me realize,
how much you mean to me and without you I can't survive.
I'm not scared of being hurt again &
I don't fear commitments anymore.
I want out lives together to begin
Coz you're the one for me of this I'm sure.
Love me gently as you've done all these days,
Be my lover and my best friend as you've been always.
You make me feel so complete and whole.
I wonder how I never saw this love,
Which I feel through my soul.
I want to be with you once more &
live happily as your wife.
I will love you from my hearts core
Coz you're the man I love, you're my life.
The Truth
When I think of my future nothing makes me look forward to it more than being with you.
Every single line from everything I've ever said to you or written for you stands true.
Like a beautiful flower blossoming I feel our relationship took it's time and grew.
Before I met you I was lost and didn't know what I wanted, not even a clue.
After looking into your eyes, you're the one for me I immediately knew.
Daydreams
When I close my eyes it's you that I see.
Remembering the words you say.
Smiling, teasing, joking, being carefree.
Images and memories I relive every day.
I feel so happy thinking my future will be with you by my side,
You make me feel complete, I'm sold!
I know together we can beat even the biggest tide.
You're my man with a heart made of gold!
I love that you trust, understand, encourage and allow me to grow,
Hopefully we'll take all the changes going forth in our stride,
To you my love, my life, my soul I bestow.
As long as you're mine, my heart will always swell with pride.
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