Weighing me down!

So, I’m a failure at committing things to myself. BIG surprise!... I’m tired of battling…I can’t seem to commit to making myself lose weight. I’m struggling here for over 4 years, heck my entire life battling with my ‘weighty’ issues. What is it with me and being a lazy bum?? I workout for a stretch and suddenly lose the commitment and focus! I know this is going to affect me in the long run. Especially with my yoyo-ing weight. Isn’t this why man created lipo?? To help the weak willed like myself? I ask myself WHY bother! I mean we’re all gonna die anyway…But of course, no one wants to hog their way into an early grave. Yet, here I am, saying no to the yummy fattening stuff and skipping out on the exercise by ‘eating right’. It’s true though, no junk for me. Is my diet the best? Hell no! I’d be a nutritionist’s worst nightmare! No amount of motivation or pep talk seems to make me wanna stick to a routine and lose the flab! So, I ask myself again, what am I to do? I’ve tried it all. Nothing works! Perhaps I should just give up the battle and give in to the fat waiting to adjust its way into my love handles and other curves! What does a woman have to do around here to melt the flab the easy way?? If there’s an answer out that’s non expensive and not insane, do let me know! In between the fake tetra juices and non effective diet, I’m waiting!

The missing pieces

There’s a void in my heart that can’t seem to get filled

I’m stuck in the present coz I’m reliving the past,

You moved out of my life it all happened so fast.

I tried filling the emptiness as much as my heart willed.

Haunted by memories and visions of what were,

I took for granted realizing your worth only after you were gone

I only hope all of this distance will eventually make our bond strong.

I thought you’d be in my life forever of this I was sure.

I’m sorry for all the times I called u in the middle of the night.

You were always there without complaints when I needed you.

Friends like you are so hard to find and few.

I’m sorry for all those times I didn’t treat you right.

You said you loved me and I said I love another.

I tried for things between us to remain the same

I can’t believe you left me like this thinking I’m vain!

Our friendship has now ended and gone in the gutter.

I really miss you and believe me, this is true.

I hope you’ll be back and this isn’t the end.

You were my rock, one of my best friend!

I’m struggling to get through everyday without you.

Deep in the night

Staring outside the window at a non lit street, I realize how beautiful the darkness really is. My first thought is to look at the sky. The big beautiful sky that we all take for granted but refuse to appreciate unless there’s a power outage. All those stars twinkling as they've done for centuries, watching over us enjoying our lives unfold in front of them. The cool breeze welcomed during a summer night making the leaves on branches ruffle and make the dust drift from one place to another. The moonlight reflecting in the ripples of the lake, spreading a calm and soothing feeling in its surroundings. The sweet smells of the earth and air wafts in through the windows leaving a tingling in the nose. The stillness of everything non nature makes you realize how the earth has been kind to allow us to share it's resources. Visions of walking hand in hand with a lover is all that’s missing in such a beautiful night. The moonlight would have reflected softly off his hair and face leaving a silhouette to be admired. The night brings with it many mysteries. It could be a time for secrets to unravel, for the true identity of someone revealed. The times when fears are disclosed or the time when souls can bond. Silence, peace, serenity. Something missing from the hustle of everyday life. Curled up on a sofa, breathing in the aromas of nature and life, I feel one with myself and with my surroundings.

Dream vs Reality

Are you a dream or a reality?

Kissing me gently,

touching me softly.

Us not meeting is no less than a tragedy.

Why could I not see what was always before me?

The endearing smile,

Stay longer...just a little while.

You struck me with sudden love setting me free.

What you mean to me you'll never know,

Can't live without you,

Trust me it's true.

You've changed me so much I guess it shows.

Are you a dream or a reality?

Filling my life with happiness.

Showing a side filled with sappiness.

Your love was what I needed, my malady!

Distance

I miss you so much everyday,

not having you hold me and hug me,

feels like torture in every way.

Distance makes the heart grow fonder,

setting the soul free,

What changes will come ahead I wonder.

I wait till the day I see you again,

finally together we will be,

I wait for such a life with you to begin.