There's no pain like that which comes from a broken heart. Especially when the entire world told you not to do something, not to trust someone; but that pesky heart still did it!
The result - You end up with a head full of memories that need to be forgotten, a heart that can not heal anymore and time that continues to stand still.
Layer by layer, piece by piece you show yourself to someone. Trust them with your future, your life. Who knew 3 years can be wiped clean in 3 months?
You have experienced pain before. Heck, you were born to survive it. But then someone comes along, pierces through that armor you put your heart behind and walks away after giving you hope.
You feel like a chump! Was it all worth it? To love and lose? To let him slip away? To intentionally let him go so he would come back? To still pray for his happiness despite him being such a dick towards you? When he threw away years of love, patience and support to fulfill his 'dream'? And worse, to marry someone else to prove a point??
When did I become so stupid?? How could I not see? I still love him...so much...that brings around a whole wave of other feelings.
To him I say: be happy with your wife in your new life. I hope she's worth it...I hope it's all worth it!
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