Karma the bitch

Ever wonder when the universe will stop fucking with you??
When will Karma stop being such a bitch?
You try to put good out in the universe but instead you just get fucked over!
Your parents tell you to do good and be good.
You learn the same thing in School and from Teachers.
Every Religion says it again and again to ensure you'll book yourself that Heaven pass.
My problem is, despite all the good you do. You still end up getting fucked over again and again by everything and everyone. I'm not saying you should stop doing good or being good. I'm just questioning the capacity in which you can take bullshit. How much can a person take in a lifetime? Who draws the line here? Leave aside God and whatever Religion.
I question, what if you've taken it your whole life and feel like enough is enough and just want this shit to end?...Not life itself...But the bitchy Karma!
I've had enough of being 'tested'. Give me my cake so I can eat it too! I bloody well earned the damn thing fair and square!!

So, Karma! I've had it with you!! Stop fucking around and give me my long overdue 'good'...Let the good times roll in you little bitch! 

Stronger...Better...Wiser...I'm a Fighter!

                I've been away from blogging because, well...life! So much has happened since I last came on this dead blog and wrote. Doesn't mean I haven't written in all these years...I just chose not to post anything. Something today made me want to. Someone rather. A friend told me that the song 'Fighter' by Christina Aguilera reminded him of me.

                 I did what any normal human would do when they're told a song is dedicated to them...They go and listen to the song again. Even though the song is old, and the lyrics aren't completely apt for my situation, I still am glad to listen to it again (especially now.) Thank you, friend!

I'm going to just post the lyrics here because...Well...I can and I want to. (I'm not going to bother with the chorus bits).

Fighter - Christina Aguilera

After all that you put me through,
You think I'd despise you,
But in the end I wanna thank you,
'Cause you've made me that much stronger

Well I thought I knew you, thinkin' that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't trust called your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were there by my side, always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames 'cause your greed sold me out in shame

After all of the stealing and cheating you probably think that I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do, I wouldn't know
Just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Never saw it coming, all of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in on a good thing before I'd realize your game
I heard you're going round playing the victim now
But don't even begin feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave
After all of the fights and the lies 'cause you're wanting to haunt me
But that won't work anymore, no more,
It's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretend not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME

I am a fighter and I
I ain't gonna stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough

You thought I would forget
But I remembered
'Cause I remembered
I remembered
You thought I would forget
I remembered
'Cause I remembered
I remembered