Not me

For Paltrow!

He thinks so low of me,
the Devil reincarnate,
out to reign destruction on all I meet,
spread about his hate.

I'm an empty vessel,
that's lost without it's soul,
whatever heart I had,
has disappeared long ago.

I've lost all humanity,
led to the darkness,
destroying everything that gets in my way
leaving no live witnesses.

He believes he sees the real me,
who I truly am deep inside,
too set on believing the illusion,
he can't change his mind.

I'm tired of trying to prove my worthiness to him,
totally fed up,
I thought I could ignore his opinions of me,
but I've truly had enough!

He's tearing me apart,
his words cutting like a knife,
out to prove my evilness,
out to ruin my life!

Tiku's Birthday Gift

I got us matching bracelets for her birthday..... Childish?... Agreed!...But we both loved it! :)

Don't say it

*My poems are dedicated to no one in particular unless I say so. *

Don't say you love me
If you don't care
Don't say forever
If you don't plan on being there.

Don't say you'll listen
If you plan to tune me out
Don't say only me
If it's someone else you care about.

Don't say it's real
If it's really not
Don't say you always will
If you plan to ever stop.

Don't say you won't leave
If you don't plan to stay.
Don't say you love me
If you're going to walk away.

Shadows

I am so caught up in the what ifs,
I forget about the maybes.
Trying to make everyone else happy,
Forgetting it's me I need to please.

I tried to be the perfect daughter,
contribute to society,
Be the rock for others to lean on,
Always doing what is expected of me.

I try to live up to all the expectations,
that are thrust down on me,
Pushing aside my own dreams,
Be who I am told to be.

I keep my true self hidden,
I can't show the world,
Afraid I won't be accepted,
Afraid of not being heard.

Could I be loved completely,
For the person I truly am?
Or will I be shunned,
For not being the prodigal woman?

I keep letting others control me,
Bending to their every whim,
But deep in my heart I keep hoping,
They will try to discover the person I really am.