That Special Woman

We’ve fought so much throughout all these years

You not understanding me,

Me disappointing you.

All I wanted was to be free.

You have always been so tough

I try to be tougher.

You have taught me so much

Even when you suffer.

You’re an amazing woman.

One who deserved a better life.

I can’t put into words how special you are.

It hurts to see you hurt, cuts me like a knife.

I can never match up to you

You are the most beautiful and strongest woman I know

You bear so much yet don’t complain

You always hide the pain never letting it show.

I’ve always taken you for granted

Making you go through so much pain.

Never told you what you mean to me.

Putting our relationship through endless strain.

Please forgive me for hurting you all these years.

I can’t change how I feel now.

I can try making it up to you.

Today I take this vow.

Sleepless

Tired of lying awake all night.
Sick of counting sheep.
Trying to keep my eyes shut with all my might.
Trying my best to sleep.

I toss and turn on my bed,
My eyes flutter open.
I curse the thoughts in my head.
I can’t sleep once awoken!

The computer's light hinders my sight,
All I want is peaceful slumber.
My brain won’t give in, it puts up a fight.
It replays memories for me to remember.

Angry for allowing it to reach this stage.
Hating how I’m hurting myself for a matter so trivial.
Making me feel trapped in a cage.
Missing the atmosphere that was convivial.

Blocking the memories and trying again to sleep.
Clearing my head of thoughts from the past
Thinking good things, forgetting the creeps,
Finally slipping into a sleep so fast.