The Placid Chronicles

That Special Woman

2011-07-12T18:43:00.000+05:00

We’ve fought so much throughout all these years

You not understanding me,

Me disappointing you.

All I wanted was to be free.

You have always been so tough

I try to be tougher.

You have taught me so much

Even when you suffer.

You’re an amazing woman.

One who deserved a better life.

I can’t put into words how special you are.

It hurts to see you hurt, cuts me like a knife.

I can never match up to you

You are the most beautiful and strong woman I know

You bear so much yet don’t complain

You always hide the pain never letting it show.

I’ve always taken you for granted

Making you go through so much pain.

Never told you what you mean to me.

Putting our relationship through endless strain.

Please forgive me for hurting you all these years.

I can’t change how I feel now.

I can try making it up to you.

Today I take this vow.

Sleepless

2011-07-07T21:13:00.000+05:00

Tired of lying awake all night.
Sick of counting sheep.
Trying to keep my eyes shut with all my might.
Trying my best to sleep.

I toss and turn on my bed,
My eyes flutter open.
I curse the thoughts in my head.
I can’t sleep once awoken!

The computers’ light hinders my sight,
All I want is peaceful slumber.
My brain won’t give in it puts up a fight.
It replays memories for me to remember.

Angry for allowing it to reach this stage.
Hating how I’m hurting myself for a matter so trivial.
Making me feel trapped in a cage.
Missing the atmosphere that was convivial.

Blocking the memories and trying again to sleep.
Clearing my head of thoughts from the past
Thinking good things, forgetting the creeps,
Finally slipping into a sleep so fast.

A Foreseen Future

2011-06-28T18:34:00.003+05:00

What will become of me I often ask?

I will grow old with eyes which I can’t use anymore

They’ve been exposed to so much radiation from computers and TV

Despite Lasik they’ll never be as they were before

I will have lungs which will be of no use to me

All the air I breathe now is polluted and filled with passive smoke.

I already have the lungs of an 80 year old woman.

All this will affect my respiratory system and give me an early stroke

Speaking of my heart,

the arteries will be blocked with cholesterol and fat

No thanks to all the junk I consume

I will probably not survive the first heart attack

Constant conversations on my cell will take its toll

My brain will be fried,

I will lose all my memories n myself.

But won’t admit it n ask for help coz of too much pride.

I won’t be able to walk straight anymore

Bad posture and night shifts will come back to haunt me

My spine will go for a toss

I will be dependent on a stick, no more free

My diet will consist of liquids

I’ll possess a stomach destroyed

years of chemical consumption will puncture it

Nothing can be done then, I’ll be sad, helpless & annoyed

I will have hands which won't grasp anything.

Arthritis and brittle bones will work their magic

Always using my hands to type or write,

Without their use, life will become quite tragic

I will age ungracefully

My looks will get affected

All the usage of unnatural products

I chose to ignore advice despite knowing what I suspected

I will look back and wonder could I have done things differently?

Would life find me forgiving?

Is it stupidity to know yet do nothing about it?

Was this life worth living?

An average Jane

2011-06-07T21:27:00.004+05:00

I’m an average girl with average tastes.

I don’t like to party

Even when the chips are down I don’t lose faith.

There’s nothing special about what I listen to

or what I like to watch

I like to procrastinate the inevitable

I believe what everyone says is true.

I love my friends and family with all my heart.

It took me forever to grow up

I am one who believes she’s always right and smart.

What makes me different from the rest?

I am a common face in the crowd.

Fighting to survive and be the best.

Stalker

2011-06-07T21:22:00.003+05:00

A stalker believes it’s his God given right,
To invade the privacy of an innocent and give her a fright.
No act is overlooked, no conversation ignored.
The stalker is a weirdo who is very bored!

Watching from a distance keeping tabs on her life.
What she does who she meets as if she’s his wife.
Despite facing rejection he still continues trying his luck.
He goes unnoticed, behind objects he ducks.

He’ll keep messaging, cyber stalking and calling.
Not for one minute thinking his victim finds this all appalling.
He hopes someday she’ll feel the way he does for her.
All hell will break loose if she doesn’t concur.

He pushes his chances farther away with every act.
Making her hate him it becomes a well known fact.
He worries over every little thing related to his ‘love.’
Thinking their pair was a match made from above.

He walks around like a man possessed.
He doesn’t realize how badly he’s obsessed.
Too scared to face reality and the truth,
He forces to be a part of her world till she gives him the boot.

Disturbed

2011-06-07T21:14:00.002+05:00

What do you do with the memories of a person who no longer exists in your life?

What do you do when you come across things that remind you of them?

How do you stop the pain you feel cutting you deep like a knife?

What do you do about all the hatred that stems?

What do you do when that person does everything to hurt you?

How do you stop your heart from caring?

What do you do when that person was stuck to you like glue?

How do you stop yourself from all the sharing?

What do you do with everything you knew about them?

How do you forget moments of the past?

What do you do when you no longer consider them rare like a gem?

What do you say about a relationship that didn’t last?

What do you do when you see them again?

How do you erase everything you went through together?

How do you pick up the pieces and being?

What do you do when forever becomes never?

She

2011-06-07T21:11:00.002+05:00

People look at her and think she’s so happy.

Unaware of the sadness that consumes her being.

All alone with no one to share her thoughts with,

She lies awake all night fighting emotions, disagreeing.

The heaviness in her heart reflects in her footsteps.

Lost in a crowd, she wanders about.

Remembering a time when happiness was hers to take.

No one cares if she screams or shouts.

Tired of battling demons n dillusions,

She wants to get in touch with reality again.

Why does sadness loom overhead?

She doesn’t know what to do or how to begin.

Nobody can save her anymore.

She’s filled with a darkness and void so deep.

No light can brighten and destroy it.

The sadness has consumed her soul for keeps.

What was...

2011-06-07T21:07:00.005+05:00

Looking back I don’t realize how quickly time flew.

Seems like just yesterday we started chatting.

How lovely our friendship grew.

I remember our late night talking.

Binge fests in restaurants.

Our useless squawking.

The times we dissed movies together.

The way you made dinner for me.

The way we said friends forever.

The times you wiped my tears.

The smile you brought upon my face.

The way you danced after a few beers.

The rides on your bike.

The time I rode it in fear.

The words forgiven out of spite.

The times we stood on your terrace.

The way you stuffed me with watermelons.

The way you call me Princess.

The care you showed when I was ill.

The plans we made for the future.

The times you refuse to let me pay the bill.

Songs sung in the middle of the night.

So many of those pointless conversations.

All these moments made our friendship so right.

Unintentional

2011-06-07T21:02:00.001+05:00

I don't know when it happened.

When you became so special to me.

We became so close.

through all the times we disagreed.

My day starts and ends with you.

You're always there for me,

What would I do without you?

I believe this is how true friends be.

It's been a funny kind of friendship.

Sometimes I hated you.

Mostly I loved you.

I have cared this much for too few.

You are dear to me but you don't know.

I know for you this is unfair.

I can't put my feelings for show.

I always pretend like I don't care.

Be my buddy always.

I'll cherish the laughter and tears,

You were there for me.

Driving away my fears.

Know that you are special.

I will always care & love you.

You're my buddy Bangu.

My friendship for u is true.

Moments of Life

2011-06-07T20:59:00.003+05:00

It’s the tired eyes which refuse to sleep

It’s the overworked mind that reflects so deep

It’s the lazy body which won’t work out

It’s the aimless person who roams about.

It’s the broken heart which refuses to let go

It’s the ones who lie that put on a show

It’s the smart ones who think they’re so cool

It’s the ones deprived off love that behave like a fool

It’s the innocence of a child that’s lost

It’s the times when the lines are crossed

It’s the beauty of a person so vain

It’s the person who lives a life in pain

It’s the ones with big egos that break the bonds

It’s the coward who avoids confrontations & absconds

It’s the hungry soul that yearns for more

It’s the ones who move fast that want it like before

It’s the things that are bad which are good

It’s the things we wish we could

It’s the experiences which we find bizarre

It’s the moments like these which make lives what they are

Compassion

2011-06-05T20:22:00.001+05:00

A nation decided a terrorist will die.
He had looked so ordinary like you and I.
What did he get out of killing so many civilians?
He had planned to kill more than millions

Nuclear bombs and weapons can only make us feel secure
Hatred is the most dangerous weapon which has no cure.
He brought with him sadness, anger and pain.
We had welcome him not knowing he’s insane.

Isn’t that what terrorists are?
Fighting a self proclaimed war?
Insane with hatred and power.
Awareness of such mad activities is the need of the hour.

Brainwashed with half baked information.
Misinterpreting teachings of a creation.
Unleashing havoc and fear is what they strive for.
They decided to destroy humanity, they swore.

Taking lives and playing God as they please.
Deciding for others what’s right or wrong, it becomes a disease.
Forgetting the innocent is worse than the act itself.
Let’s not print it, forget it by then throwing it in a shelf.

Honouring the deceased for a death caused by no fault of their own,
Is how humanity, bravery and kindness are shown.

I am...

2011-06-02T22:30:00.002+05:00

I often wondered

If I wasn’t working as me,

Then who would I be?

I had so many choices

When I was a child

My imagination knew no bounds

It would always run wild

I thought of being a surgeon

I’d get my degree from Princeton

I then found out how hard life can be

It was a tough call but I faced reality.

Nope, this wasn’t the profession for me.

Then I thought of being a lawyer

Strong, confident, powerful

No morals or values, it’s shameful.

You twist the truth,

You’re a well paid liar

Nope, this wasn’t the profession for me.

I then wanted to be a teacher

No job seemed more noble and convenient

But a closer look at the profession

Had me raise an eyebrow and question

A teacher is not appreciated for her work

She’s in fact looked upon as an alien creature

Only when the kids grow up they realize

They are who they are partly because of the teachers

Efforts, hard work and nagging cries!

Nope, this wasn’t the profession for me.

I decided a writer is what I wanted to be

Creative, independent, carefree,

I soon realized I’m not so artsy

Down the drain that dream went

Nope, this wasn’t the profession for me.

A Rep, Ops Manager, Voice coach, Trainer,

Content Writer, Assistant Manager, Freelance Editor.

My job doesn't change me or make me me,

I am who I am because this is who I want to be.

Does Vs Doesn't

2011-05-30T10:28:00.000+05:00

It doesn’t matter if you’ve fallen many times
It doesn’t matter if you’ve been cheated
It doesn’t matter if people have gone away
It doesn’t matter if you were defeated

It does matter how you behave under stress
It does matter to pick yourself up after a fall
It does matter you take responsibility
It does matter who stands by you through it all

It doesn’t matter what hurtful words people say
It doesn’t matter if you’ve been lied to
It doesn’t matter if things change
It doesn’t matter if the world doesn’t revolve around you

It does matter how you handle situations
It does matter to enjoy joyful things
It does matter to be more careful
It does matter to focus on what happiness brings

Our World

2011-05-27T08:28:00.001+05:00

This is the world we live in

Every feeling & thought is shared

Every second in life clicked or posted

Even intimate moments aren’t spared

Relationships are made through social networking

People are stalked, observed and fussed over

New bonds are made, old ones restored

What’s that? A hidden side to your partner you discover!

How dependent we’ve become on technology!

We complain about no time for new things

Wiling away time instead of conversing

Forgetting the joy, peace and excitement it brings

Children are little adults waiting to grow up

No longer are they allowed to wander or be idle

Play time, hobbies, friends don’t exist

Futures are laid out once they hit the cradle

Aged people try to be independent

Their world revolves around their kids company

Kids are too busy with their lives to care

So parents end up confined to their TV

This is the world we live in

Taking everything in life for granted

Forgetting ties, reality, living life

We're connected yet so disconnected!

My Dream

2011-05-26T10:57:00.000+05:00

In my dream I see us getting closer.

I see us loving each other like never before.

We are dancing to songs in each others arms.

This what we wanted we are so sure.

Making sure there’s nothing between us to hide,

I stand by you feeling lucky to be your wife.

Being each others lifelong friend & guide.

Together, going through the ups and downs of life.

In this dream we are happy n content,

Solving problems without any fuss

Having no regrets or reasons to repent.

For life’s been good to us

Giving us happiness well deserved.

We live our lives starting and ending with another

Grateful for all between us we preserved

Never letting that flame diminish for each other

The Heart

2011-05-25T22:46:00.005+05:00

The heart is the most fragile organ of all

It can forgive through love the greatest of crimes.

It can withstand so many things even a terrible fall

It can be broken and pieced together many a times

It speaks through the eyes from the soul

It is the feeling which writers speak of

It loses all senses and spirals out of control

When the heart is given to someone we love

You may doubt decisions of the heart

The brain is then ignored and loses its power

This is what ends up being the best part

A new world is shown, the old one it will devour.

Hearts can be exchanged from one soul to another

Be careful when something like this happens

It can be lost if you try too hard to smother

Leaving behind lives lived without passions.

A heart in love beats in a body no longer its own

It's kept in your care until the time is right

Something unconditional is felt and shown

Don’t let this go without a proper fight

Awkward

2011-05-25T16:55:00.005+05:00

His heart is beating rapidly by the second. He starts wondering if he’s going to have a heart attack. At twenty seven is it possible? It probably is. Nothing surprises him anymore. He looks around to see if anyone can see how nervous he is. Of course, no one in the vast room takes note of how agitated he really is. There’s so much noise. How will he find his voice and tell what he feels in all this ruckus?

She looks at him in between deciding what to order and asks, “Are you ok? You look kind of lost.”

He replies, “Of course. I’m just tired.”

She knows he’s lying but decides not to press him anymore for details. He’ll probably confide in her when he wants. She looks at the menu as if she’s reading Greek. How does one order Italian food with no knowledge about the cuisine? She pretends she knows what she’s going to order but makes a last minute decision to ask the waiter, “What would you recommend from the menu?”

After placing the order she rambles on about small talk and he relaxes as he enjoys watching her talk.

Why does he love her so much? Is it her big brown eyes? Her straight silky brown hair? Her full lips? She has a good body not enough to be considered hot but definitely enough to make heads turn if she decides that is what she wants.

She can still make heads turn even without dressing up. She's beautiful. But that's not the reason why he loves her. He believes it’s her simplicity, her honesty, her desire to have fun and to enjoy the moment that made him fall in love with her. She is in so many ways what he wanted in his woman yet in so many ways she’s not. Her carefree yet caring nature can make even the most stone hearted peoples demeanor change. He notices he’s been silent for too long. He does what he’s good at, asking open ended questions and allowing her to talk some more, “How’s work?”

She responds with a frown in mid sentence and shrugs. Flicking a strand of stray hair from her ponytail. Yes, she still ties a ponytail. Something which most girls refuse to do in public now. She starts talking about work and the ‘torture’ that’s inflicted on her with such animosity one would think she works for Hitler himself.

Dinner is served and she speaks some more about work but starts commenting on the food as if she is an expert cook herself. He had the misfortune of tasting a dish she had made and swore to never give her that chance to cook again. Not if he wanted to live to see another day.

He smiles at her some more remembering the time they had spent together in the kitchen when she was boasting about her culinary skills. He watches her animated expressions when she starts talking about things. She is so different from all the cardboard people he has to talk to day in and day out. She suddenly asks a question out of the blue, “Why is it that you don’t have a girlfriend?”

He’s stunned at this sudden change in the conversation.

“Why? What do you mean why? It’s because I haven’t-“

“Yes, yes, haven’t met the right girl yet. God! Is that the only excuse you guys can come up with? I mean. Come on! There are a million girls out there. I’m sure one of them is worthy of being your girlfriend material. Or did you chicken out and never confess what you feel to any girl?”

He blushes slightly.

“What crap! I would never chicken out. I mean, if you can find me a girl who’s like you then I’ll surely make her my girlfriend. Heck, I’d make her my wife!” He says with a wink.

It’s now her turn to blush.

“Oh please! Stop with this crap. Just tell me the real reason.”

He looks at her for a second then looks away. He starts thinking about how much he wants this woman in front of him. How much he wants to touch her, hold her, kiss her, and spend every day with her. He wants to be able to call her his. He wants to share the ups and downs of life with her. Be there to wipe her tears, be the reason for her to smile. He wants to be the one she turns to for help, advice, and companionship. He wants to see her first thing in the morning looking so innocent and unfazed by the day. He wants to be there hugging her to sleep squeezing her problems away. He wants her to be his wife, the mother of his children, the woman he can grow old with. He wants to be her everything, just like she is his everything.

She watches him lost in thoughts as he looks out of the window.

“Hello! What’s wrong with you? I asked you a question. How about answering it this century?”

“Well, the real reason I guess is that I don’t want to have a girlfriend because the one I want is someone I can’t have.”

“You little wuss! There’s no such thing as ‘someone I can’t have' you need to grow a pair and tell the girl you love her.”

He looks at her intensely in silence.

She opens her mouth to say something but just stops.

There’s a moment of silence.

The waiter clears their plates. Watches them look at each other then asks, “Would you like dessert?”

There’s still silence. She looks at the waiter and nods a no.

“Should I get the cheque sir?”

He nods without removing his eyes off of her.

She shifts in her chair. Looks around the restaurant and starts talking about something random.

He looks at her sadly and fakes a smile pretending to listen to her. She insists on splitting the bill and they get ready to leave so he can drop her back home.

There’s a stifling aura throughout the drive back home. She turns the radio on. Fiddles with it for sometime then switches it off cursing as to how there’s never anything good on it. She tries her best to keep a conversation going between them but he continues to remain silent and make it a one sided effort.

They reach her house. They sit in silence. Before she gets out of his car, she looks at him, clears her throat and says, “I’m sure there are a lot of girls out there that would want to be with you. I know whoever you end up with will be a very lucky girl. It’s late; I have to call up my sweetie and get up early for work tomorrow. Take care. See you around.”

He stares at her with hurt in his eyes and watches her grimace some more under his gaze. He realizes that he’s said too much. A sinking feeling in his heart takes place. Suddenly there’s not enough air for him to breathe. He watches her get out of the car a little too quickly. She doesn’t turn back to wave goodbye as she always does. He accepts with a broken heart that she’s probably not going to see him again after today.

The Love Effect

2011-05-24T17:48:00.003+05:00

Isn’t it funny how when you’re in love,

You get through the darkest times smiling

And you feel blessed from the Lord above?

The feelings love evoke is like no other,

You can’t ignore it, it’s too strong

And you realize there’s so much to discover

Nothing anyone does or says hurts you anymore,

You are protected by someone specials love

You share a special bond, an easy rapport.

Where was he all these years you ask?

You took for granted what you had,

Realizing he’s yours to claim was a task.

When you find your love, keep him happy,

It’s difficult but it can be done.

Otherwise you lose all and make life crappy.

That special person is a blessing in disguise.

You are showered with all their love

All the hate pent up inside suddenly dies.

Love has a way to mend a broken heart,

You need to give it away cautiously

Otherwise someone will pierce it with a dart.

Lessons of life

2011-05-24T17:45:00.002+05:00

In life there is many a lesson to learn,

Trust once lost, is difficult to earn.

The path to forgiveness is filled with challenges,

Evil triumphs good and tips scales of balances.

Try as you may to win hearts back,

They may turn away from you with such tact.

Life goes on without them,

Cut them out of your life from the stem.

Others will value and cherish you,

They will stand by and be true.

Hold on to these people with all your might.

They will support you day and night.

Friends and family get you through it all

They pick you up when you take a fall.

A life without love is not worth living.

A heart should be one that’s giving.

When the good times fade and bad ones come

Remember darkness will fade because of the sun.

Life isn’t a straight line it’s a curve.

With twists and turns be careful when you swerve.

People and friends will come and go.

Learn not to get upset, go with the flow.

No one is worth the pain they put you through.

Just thank God coz from it you learnt, you grew.

Cry, laugh, smile, dance.

Open your heart, today, take a chance.

Reality

2011-05-24T17:43:00.006+05:00

Occasions stop mattering when the ones you love aren’t there,

The times you take for granted are now moments you wish to share.

They could be simple things like talking and brushing each others hair.

Those are unforgettable memories you have with people you care.

Nothing is good without them not even the air.

You can’t survive alone, you were always a pair.

Those people can’t be replaced because they’re unique & rare.

Such changes in life make things unfair.

The distance and separation is something you can’t bear.

You would always stay in touch is what you declare.

Things will change so be careful, beware.

Those relationships made you grow, realize, become aware.

Your future will now be without them and that gives you a scare.

These things are ‘normal’ so do something, prepare!

You try to keep in touch, you promise, you swear.

When you see them again, it’s damage which can’t undergo repair.

You sit in a room feeling uncomfortable in your chair.

Once best friends now you just look helpless and stare.

Sitting in silence playing a boring game of solitaire.

Any topic spoken becomes offensive causing a glare.

You reflect on the bond you had and constantly compare.

You felt reality won’t affect you, your love it will spare.

The void eats away at you and cuts, it’s a permanent tear.

Someday

2011-05-24T17:42:00.005+05:00

Someday he’ll call and his ego will fall,

He’ll wish this would end and he will have a friend.

Someday he’ll realize what he’s missing after he’ll socialize

He’ll meet many more people and his sorries will seem feeble.

Someday he’ll look back and the guilt will attack.

He’ll be lost and I won’t come back at any cost.

Someday he’ll pass all our places and remember then make faces.

He’ll wish he didn’t leave in a hurry coz the past he can’t bury.

Someday he’ll be alone regretting this friendship he had thrown.

He’ll wish I was with him and he’ll only admit it to his kin.

Someday he’ll grow up and upset as I am I wish him good luck.

He’ll never know what he meant to me, he was one my best friends you see.

Someday he’ll move on and wish he hadn’t gone.

He’ll feel the pain he caused when he left, then my feelings he’ll feel in depth.

The WHY? DAMN IT!! WHY??! Situations

2011-05-23T21:06:00.005+05:00

These situations are not personal experiences but observations:

You apply a cakey layer of sun block seeing the scorching sun only to step out and have the weather become all cloudy!
You wear white the day it suddenly rains.
You take a shortcut only to be stuck in traffic.
You walk in on someone close to you making out and the image scars you for life.
You get confused when asked to make a decision and find out the first choice was the right one.
You get caught lying/stealing!
You order what seems to be the best on the menu and find out sewer water would taste better…N it wouldn’t cost u this much either!
You see a hot guy/girl who you hope will notice you but instead notices your friend!
You move to a queue which seems shorter and has people with less items to pay for but it backfires. Those in the longest queue move faster than you.
You shop till you drop and then a week later there’s a bloody sale everywhere!
You end up wearing shoes the day you need to go and shop and struggle to get in and out of clothes.
You get a trial room without so much as an ounce of air circulating in it.
Despite being educated, you freak out when you see official forms like Form 16…Tax declarations, etc.
You realize in between commercials you spent a good 1 hour watching a crappy movie and missed the beginning of a good one. Hence, you continue watching the crappy one!
You trust someone and they end up stabbing you in the back.
You diet/exercise/practically kill yourself trying to lose weight and find out you GAINED mysterious weight instead of losing it!
You spend good money on something only to find out it’s a waste.
You take hours shopping only to have styles go out of fashion within weeks.
You come out from the sultry heat only to have no electricity in your house.
You look back at hideous pictures and ask parents WHY?! DAMN IT!! WHY?? was I looking like that??

Midnight Insight

2011-05-23T21:05:00.005+05:00

O memories of midnight,

you come haunt me everyday

When the mind should be resting

You awaken it by reviving dormant thoughts.

Have I not served you,

diligently evading sleep?

You stay when you're unwanted

You forget me when I sit idle.

My thoughts never leave me

I'm stuck, replaying what was.

Can one run away from memories?

Does blocking the pain avoid the suffering?

I am lost, wandering in a world not understood.

How do I break free?

Night after night I wait for a change

Hoping I don’t have to

Relive, reflect and reminisce

Here By Me - 3 Doors Down

2011-05-22T19:06:00.002+05:00

"Here By Me"

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you
The things I thought you’d never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood

So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you…

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

I can’t take another day without you
‘Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
But everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love…

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

As the days grow long I see
That time is standing still for me
When you’re not here

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

Just a Kiss - Lady Antebellum

2011-05-22T16:02:00.003+05:00

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this
Let's just take this slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch in the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time
It will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch in the fire burning so bright

And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

No I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch in the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, oh, let's do this right, with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight
Kiss goodnight

Is Khadar Pyaar Hai.

2011-05-22T15:18:00.006+05:00

Is kadar pyaar hain tumse ae humsafar

Is kadar pyaar hain tumse ae humsafar

Ab to jeete hain hum bas tumhe dekhkar

Tumhari har ada tumhari har nazar

Yeh kya kehne lagi tumhe hain kya khabar

Is kadar pyaar hain tumse ae humsafar

Ab to jeete hain hum bas tumhe dekhkar

Dil mein hain betabiyan neend udne lagi

Tere khayalon se hi aankh judne lagi

Har pal tumko dekha maine

Kehti hain meri nazar

Tumhari har ada tumhari har nazar

Yeh kya kehne lagi tumhe hain kya khabar

Is kadar pyaar hain tumse ae humsafar

Ab to jeete hain hum bas tumhe dekhkar

Sasoon mein basne lagi jabse tu ho jaane jaan

Apna sa lagne laga mujhko saara jahan

Mehka mehka lagta mujhko

Khushiyo se dil ka nagar

Tumhari har ada tumhari har nazar

Yeh kya kehne lagi tumhe hain kya khabar

Is kadar pyaar hain tumse ae humsafar

Ab to jeete hain hum bas tumhe dekhkar

Tumhari har ada tumhari har nazar

Yeh kya kehne lagi tumhe hain kya khabar

A friend indeed!

2011-05-03T21:33:00.003+05:00

When friends go missing from your life,

You stand by and watch helpless

They just walk out and don’t think twice.

They end up breaking your heart.

It hurts so badly, it cuts like a knife,

They become selfish & careless.

They’re downright rude & not nice.

Warning! Don’t befriended them from the start.

They refuse to talk and resolve the strife,

They ignore, bad mouth and become shameless.

All this because you refused to be their wife.

They think they’re too good for you & over smart!

They suck your blood worse than lice,

The pain is so sharp it leaves you breathless.

That’s the cost of ‘friendship’, now pay the price.

They wait and pierce your heart with a dart.

They have nothing to offer you except vice,

The torment you feel makes you wonder if it’s endless.

They split your insides then gnaw at ‘em like mice.

Then dispose off you like rotten vegetables from a cart.

They have hearts of stone & souls of ice.

They take your heart & behave reckless,

Saying sorry is what they feel will suffice.

They destroy your trust, that’s the worst part.

God sent

2011-05-03T20:59:00.008+05:00

I always use to find love a mystery.

I felt it before but never with such intensity.
I'm so much wiser and stronger now.
I put in efforts & am not a lazy cow.
I won't take you for granted.
Or live in a land enchanted.

I will stand by and support you in every way,

Make me yours, let's not delay.

The way you make me smile no one else can,

You're different, not just any other man.

You have a heart of gold,

caring, loving, unique, bold.

I can't imagine life without you anymore,

I'm yours now, I promised my heart and swore.

You're an amazing mix of innocent and mature,

You have a soul untouched, so pure.

I feel this love that runs through my veins,

comes once in a lifetime then everything does change.

You make my soul feel loved & content.

You're my love, the one who God sent.

Lucky me

2011-05-03T20:54:00.005+05:00

You opened up your heart to me & I will guard it forever.

Protecting you from all & letting harm hurt you never.

I will love you much more than I do till the day I die,

I will go against any challenge for you, no matter what I will defy.

These words I pen are not just words to please your heart,

These words come from my soul, my being, every part.

I'm so lucky to love my best friend,

You don't judge me or use a tone that condescends.

How did I get a man who is so perfect for me?

I can't believe you will be mine, my handsome would be.

Unanswered

2011-05-03T20:50:00.006+05:00

When is it you miss me the most?

Do you pass by the places we visited?

Am I real then or a shadow or a ghost?

Do you see me in your sleep?

Are we together and happy?

Is our love still strong and deep?

Do you think of me when you are busy at work?

Are you daydreaming about me then?

Do you remember and hide a little smirk?

Do you picture me whenever you hear my voice?

Do you pine to be near me as I do you?

Would you have done it all differently if given a choice?

Don't you think it's amazing, giving us a shot?

Do you go with friends and wish I was with you?

Will you still be mine no matter what?

My man

2011-05-03T02:52:00.002+05:00

This voice I listen to everyday comes from a man I adore,

He's gentle,understanding, funny, I couldn't ask for more.

He stands by me even when I make mistakes,

He'll not do anything to cause any heart aches.

In his love I can feel myself change,

He makes me feel better about myself, not strange.

How can one feeling do so much?

How can I not feel special with that warm touch?

Your love has taught me more than you know,

I'm different now coz you helped me grow.

I love you so much my best friend,

My love for you has no beginning, no end.

Zombie

2011-05-03T02:44:00.002+05:00

Walking around in a city that's dead,

I remember how it was when we had first met.

Spring had just started

Love was in the air.

Soon you departed,

like you didn't care.

Was there a reason for breaking my heart?

Or did you think you were being smart?

I moved on with time,

living my life without you.

It wasn't an easy climb,

I wish the past I could undo.

You didn't deserve my love or affection,

you're like a bad disease, an infection.

Have you've realized what you've lost?

Does it even matter?

I will never come back to you at any cost.

I don't wanna see my head & heart splatter.

now you walk around in a city that's dead,

remembering how it was when we had first met.

Amazing you.

2011-05-03T02:42:00.002+05:00

It's amazing how you mended my broken heart,

Never a romantic,

waking up feeling your love in me is the best part.

I look forward to talking to you each day,

These feelings aren't semantic,

Memories I remember, relive and replay.

I want to be where you are,

with you forever,

I am your morning star.

You can lift me up in my lowest of lows.

I'm so glad we're together

amongst all, it's me that you chose.

You're the reason I feel free again,

I smile, I dance.

your love runs through me in every vein.

My feelings are clear, on display,

Is this a dream perchance?

You complete me in every way

My Mr. Perfect

2011-05-03T02:40:00.003+05:00

I have never come across a man as perfect as you,

who stands by me even if things go askew.

You're the epitome of what every man should be,

this love of ours will always last this I can foresee.

I haven't put you on a pedestal if that's what you think,

I just love you like crazy, no, I don't need a shrink. :)

You're everything I always wanted in my man,

you care for me, know me, you understand.

You've made the happiest and luckiest woman alive,

I'll do whatever it takes to make us last and survive.

There's no me without you,

you're like a dream come true.

When you love me I lose myself in you,

this love I now feel I can never undo.

Realization

2011-05-03T02:34:00.002+05:00

Being next to you all these days made me realize,

how much you mean to me and without you I can't survive.

I'm not scared of being hurt again &

I don't fear commitments anymore.

I want out lives together to begin

Coz you're the one for me of this I'm sure.

Love me gently as you've done all these days,

Be my lover and my best friend as you've been always.

You make me feel so complete and whole.

I wonder how I never saw this love,

Which I feel through my soul.

I want to be with you once more &

live happily as your wife.

I will love you from my hearts core

Coz you're the man I love, you're my life.

The Truth

2011-05-02T02:36:00.002+05:00

When I think of my future nothing makes me look forward to it more than being with you.

Every single line from everything I've ever said to you or written for you stands true.

Like a beautiful flower blossoming I feel our relationship took it's time and grew.

Before I met you I was lost and didn't know what I wanted, not even a clue.

After looking into your eyes, you're the one for me I immediately knew.

Daydreams

2011-05-01T02:39:00.005+05:00

When I close my eyes it's you that I see.

Remembering the words you say.

Smiling, teasing, joking, being carefree.

Images and memories I relive every day.

I feel so happy thinking my future will be with you by my side,

You make me feel complete, I'm sold!

I know together we can beat even the biggest tide.

You're my man with a heart made of gold!

I love that you trust, understand, encourage and allow me to grow,

Hopefully we'll take all the changes going forth in our stride,

To you my love, my life, my soul I bestow.

As long as you're mine, my heart will always swell with pride.

Weighing me down!

2011-04-29T23:12:00.002+05:00

So, I’m a failure at committing things to myself. BIG surprise!... I’m tired of battling…I can’t seem to commit to making myself lose weight. I’m struggling here for over 4 years, heck my entire life battling with my ‘weighty’ issues. What is it with me and being a lazy bum?? I workout for a stretch and suddenly lose the commitment and focus! I know this is going to affect me in the long run. Especially with my yoyo-ing weight. Isn’t this why man created lipo?? To help the weak willed like myself? I ask myself WHY bother! I mean we’re all gonna die anyway…But of course, no one wants to hog their way into an early grave. Yet, here I am, saying no to the yummy fattening stuff and skipping out on the exercise by ‘eating right’. It’s true though, no junk for me. Is my diet the best? Hell no! I’d be a nutritionist’s worst nightmare! No amount of motivation or pep talk seems to make me wanna stick to a routine and lose the flab! So, I ask myself again, what am I to do? I’ve tried it all. Nothing works! Perhaps I should just give up the battle and give in to the fat waiting to adjust its way into my love handles and other curves! What does a woman have to do around here to melt the flab the easy way?? If there’s an answer out that’s non expensive and not insane, do let me know! In between the fake tetra juices and non effective diet, I’m waiting!

The missing pieces

2011-04-28T01:41:00.003+05:00

There’s a void in my heart that can’t seem to get filled

I’m stuck in the present coz I’m reliving the past,

You moved out of my life it all happened so fast.

I tried filling the emptiness as much as my heart willed.

Haunted by memories and visions of what were,

I took for granted realizing your worth only after you were gone

I only hope all of this distance will eventually make our bond strong.

I thought you’d be in my life forever of this I was sure.

I’m sorry for all the times I called u in the middle of the night.

You were always there without complaints when I needed you.

Friends like you are so hard to find and few.

I’m sorry for all those times I didn’t treat you right.

You said you loved me and I said I love another.

I tried for things between us to remain the same

I can’t believe you left me like this thinking I’m vain!

Our friendship has now ended and gone in the gutter.

I really miss you and believe me, this is true.

I hope you’ll be back and this isn’t the end.

You were my rock, one of my best friend!

I’m struggling to get through everyday without you.

Deep in the night

2011-04-25T01:23:00.002+05:00

Staring outside the window at a non lit street, I realize how beautiful the darkness really is. My first thought is to look at the sky. The big beautiful sky that we all take for granted but refuse to appreciate unless there’s a power outage. All those stars twinkling as they've done for centuries, watching over us enjoying our lives unfold in front of them. The cool breeze welcomed during a summers night making the leaves of branches ruffle and make the dust drift from one place to another. The moonlight reflecting in the ripples of the lake spreading a calm and soothing feeling in its surroundings. The sweet smells of the earth and air wafts in through the windows leaving a tingling sense in the nose. The stillness of everything non nature makes you realize how the earth has been kind to allow us to share its resources. Visions of walking hand in hand with a lover is all that’s missing in such a beautiful night. The moonlight would have reflected softly off his hair and face leaving a silhouette to be admired. The night brings with it many mysteries. It could be a time for secrets to unravel, for the true identity of someone revealed, the times when fears are disclosed or the time when souls can bond. Silence, peace, serenity. Something missing from the hustle of everyday life. Curled up on a sofa, breathing in the aromas of nature and life I feel one with myself and with my surroundings.

Dream vs Reality

2011-04-21T02:45:00.002+05:00

Are you a dream or a reality?

Kissing me gently,

touching me softly.

Us not meeting is no less than a tragedy.

Why could I not see what was always before me?

The endearing smile,

Stay longer...just a little while.

You struck me with sudden love setting me free.

What you mean to me you'll never know,

Can't live without you,

Trust me it's true.

You've changed me so much I guess it shows.

Are you a dream or a reality?

Filling my life with happiness.

Showing a side filled with sappiness.

Your love was what I needed, my malady!

Distance

2011-04-03T02:37:00.002+05:00

I miss you so much everyday,

not having you hold me and hug me,

feels like torture in every way.

Distance makes the heart grow fonder,

setting the soul free,

What changes will come ahead I wonder.

I wait till the day I see you again,

finally together we will be,

I wait for such a life with you to begin.

Lessons learnt from horror/gore movies.

2011-02-27T18:51:00.002+05:00

You may just survive if you learn from others mistakes:

Never try to be adventurous. It always results in death.
Don't befriend other tourists. They are like magnets for trouble and generally die anyways!
Stop sharing your life history with random people.
Don't poke your nose in other peoples business. It only results in death!
If someone says what you saw or heard was unreal then consider them dead. Believe in only and only yourself.
Always travel to where the majority goes to. You deviate, you die!
Never follow or try to find out the source of sounds. Curiosity kills the cat.
Never travel in groups. Only one person survives.
Stop dividing into smaller groups. It's easier for the killer(s) to get rid off you.
Don't bother fighting your death at the hands of a serial killer. The death is always the worst for such people coz you piss them off.
Never ignore rumours or be an idiot and laugh at them. They always end up carrying an amount of truth in them.
You're bound to get killed if someone you know had a past near death experience at the hands of a serial killer.
The person you get intimate with is 90% of the times the killer!
Dress properly when travelling. You don't wanna die dressed as a hobo.
Those who talk the most/are annoying die first.
Always be prepared for an attack. If you travel without even so much as a pair of scissors you're a dead duck!
Don't just check into a motel. Explore the room for cameras/hidden doors.
If the person at the reception looks creepy he probably is.
Always let someone know where you are.
Don't even bother carrying a cell phone, it never works when you need it to.
There's no point in hiding. You get found anyway!
Stop acting like you don't believe in God/religion/prayers.
Don't be skeptical when someone chants/recites prayers. They're always the ones you run back to to save your ass.
Don't ignore crazy people's advice. They're trying to do you a favour.
When a stranger in a foreign country shows interest in you, you will die!
Europeans & Americans are generally the psychopaths. Beware!
Always do research before moving into a new house. It could very well be haunted.
If the family consists of few members, it's sheer stupidity to move into a huge house. Majority of people in large houses die more than those in small ones.
Stop going to secluded places.
Especially stop going to secluded places to make out. Get a room like normal people!
Wait till the killer's dead THEN make out if you want to.
Besides, the couple that makes out the most die first.
Just because you've been through a traumatic experience doesn't mean you become weirder and bitchier than you were before. It's no one's fault your life sucks!
Stop saying everything's going to be alright. Creating such false hopes is worse than death!
The most important lesson though is, don't help anyone in trouble. The helpers ALWAYS die.

You know you're in Hyderabad when....

2011-02-27T18:31:00.003+05:00

You know you're in Hyderabad when....

The licence plates read AP.
You hear words like potta, potti, mama, ra, yaaron, chicha, khallah, mama.
Guys hit on any girl not caring if she's single or committed.
When an accident takes place everyone must stop and stare sometimes even park the cars and watch rather than actually help.
The traffic cops are useless and cause more traffic jams.
Ramoji film city is the poor man's version of Universal studios.
Secunderabad is not considered as a part of Hyderabad.
Every family is associated to someone in the Gulf/US/UK.
Reddy, Srinivas and Mohammed are every other persons name.
Even when faced with a crisis everyone's laid back.
Rules are meant to be broken!
The auto drivers always try to rip you off.
Girls get harassed no matter what they wear.
Girls generally look starved. Kareena copied THEM!
Almost every weekend you must eat out.
Since there's no beach the public gets cozy near Necklace road/Tank bund.
Goats feet, intestines, brain, kidneys, liver, minced meat are eaten for breakfast.
Any good news calls for a 'treat'/party.
The boys can stay out all night with their friends but the girls can't even hang out with theirs regularly during the day.
If a Muslim boy wants to meet up with his Muslim girlfriend during the courtship days, he's accompanied by one friend and she by anything above 3.
Biryani's sold at almost every corner.
There's a bandh every few months.
Osmania University students have nothing better to do than protest and create riots.
Politicians are never seen nor heard.
Every local bus is over flowing with people.
Vegetarians are scorned for not eating meat!
People starve themselves all day to hog before attending a function.
Women cover their heads during the Azaan while watching TV.
Every other person's an Engineer/Doctor/BPO Employee.
No matter what, you're always right!
Everyone has an ego problem.
No woman is out of your league!
The more gawdy you look, the more beautiful you look.
The public is too helpful for their own good. Detailed instructions are given when asked for directions. E.G. Go straight, take a left, then there will be two lanes, don't take the fat one take the skinny lane that looks like it's for two wheelers, after that take the first left next to Kanchan shop then keep going straight and then you'll come to a dead end. Before the dead end is another right and from there you need to take another right and you'll have reached XYZ place.

You know you're in Kerala when...

2011-02-27T14:17:00.003+05:00

You know you're in Kerala when...

The licence plates read KL.
Every word has more than 3 syllables.
Words are spelled differently and pronounced differently.
Every road leads to a beach.
Bananas come in 4-5 different varieties.
You don't just peel and eat the bananas, you make fritters, chips, cakes, curry and many more things out of them.
Everyone has curly/wavy hair.
Oiling your hair is second to compulsion.
The women generally tie their hair in half making it look poofy.
The men sport mustaches (you're not considered a man if you don't).
Everyone speaks too fast.
If you don't know how to pronounce a certain place, remember the first syllable and murmur the rest.
The lanes are narrow but still folks use it as a two way lane.
Every other house either has a banana tree or a palm tree with coconuts.
Despite getting bananas everywhere they're still sold in shops by the dozens.
Everything is cooked in or with some form of coconuts.
It's always hot!
Everyone knows someone who has been to or is in Dubai/Sharjah/Gulf countries.
Every other shop is a bakery.
Every other person is an Engineer.
Family go to pubs together.
Everyone does yoga/teaches it.
People openly stare if a girl is wearing jeans and a top other than a kurti.
Majority of women are either busty/big hipped.
Every bank offers gold loan.
The people are very hospitable.
There are only a handful of places where the 'young' crowd can hangout. (That's flooded with families too!)
Talcum powder's used as foundation.
People are either too skinny/overweight.
Every other billboard has Mohan Lal/Mamooty either promoting their movies/advertising a product.
By 10 the city looks like a ghost town.
Everyone's educated and has a minimum of 2degrees/diplomas.
Men don't mind being seen in colorful lungis with jazzy patterns and blinding colours.
The rice is different than normal rice.
Seafood's easily available. (Penguins and Polar bears need to migrate to India's coastal areas!)
Everyone develops too fast but looks younger than their age eventually. They literally stop ageing!

You know you're in Delhi when....

2011-02-27T11:47:00.007+05:00

I was sitting idle yesterday and came up with the 'You know you're in' series. These are supposed to be about my take on a particular city.

Will add more when I remember. None of the stuff I write in these series is to offend anyone, it's to be taken with a pinch of salt and a whole lot of chuckles.

You know you're in Delhi when....

The licence plates read DL.
People on two wheelers wear helmets.
Even the maid dresses up.
Anything within an hours distance in considered near.
Momo's are the 'chaat' substitutes.
Cold weather is anything below minus degrees otherwise the weather's pleasant.
You can't tell the difference in accents between those from Haryana, Punjab, Delhi, etc. Yet you're expected to know!
Chole/Puri and other heavy stuff is considered a snack.
Dairy products are used like water.
The radio stations sound better than your own personal collections of songs.
Chicken dishes are a must in every meal.
Weddings are extremely lavish.
There are more shopping places/malls than people.
People power walk/exercise in monumental places like Humayun's tomb.
Words rhyme. E.G. Chai vai, dolay sholay, high fi, etc.
Toilet paper is available everywhere but people choose not to flush!
Everyone is stylish.
People only wear branded stuff.
Most of these branded clothes are bought at street side places.
Everyone sun bathes.
Majority of the girls are no more than 5'4.
It's always about showing off. Cars, clothes, houses.
The words yaar and dikath are used in almost all sentences.

Calvin & Hobbes

2011-02-27T10:50:00.007+05:00

I hold you in my arms watching you sleep,

Feeling your breath against my cheek.

I feel your heart beat against mine,

I hold your hands feeling them intertwine.

I feel overwhelmed with sudden love.

You look so innocent and pure like a dove.

I watch you sleep peacefully like a baby,

There's no chance of us being together not even a maybe.

I feel a tear trickle down my cheek,

I don't know when again it is we will meet.

Will my feelings be as strong as now?

I wish I could know this somehow.

I hold you in my arms protecting you from harm,

I can feel your love spreading through me keeping me warm.

You will wake up soon and not know,

My feelings for you which I never show.

You're not just my buddy but my best friend,

Don't ever leave me coz I can't bear the end.

High in the sky.

2011-02-17T17:50:00.012+05:00

A little something I came across which I had written when I was on my way to Delhi.

I am reminded of my childhood while I sit thousands of feet above the sky. Through my window I see people and buildings turn into microscopic objects. I do but the obvious yet impossible. I try to find my house in the clutter of buildings. Having failed in doing so I try to find anything I can identify. Of course I can't!

I see my beautiful city with amazement as I leave it to visit another. The earth below me looks so colourful like a quilt. Patches of green, grey, brown and red look up at me. On my side I see the sky turn from grey to white then blue and then dark blue.

I always look at the mysterious sky wondering how would it be if us humans hadn't explored and conquered it. The clouds look so perfectly placed below the horizon making me remember the games I played looking at the friendly replicas of cotton. They take different shapes and sizes as some merge into each other while some wander off. Each time I look at the horizon I feel blessed to be alive and fortunate to experience God's beauty.

Hyderabad.

The skkkkyyyyyyy!

The almighty sun!
A weird shape in the clouds...What does it look like?

Look at the shadow of the cloud!

Landing.

Delhi

Delhi again.

Romeo & Juliet!

2011-02-10T14:33:00.008+05:00

I was talking to my friend Akshay today over the phone when the conversation turned into nonsense (quite a common trend with me.) During the course of our pointless conversation I made up a short story on the Spoken Phonetic Alphabet.

I now share my story with you all. :)

First, the Spoken Phonetic Alphabets for those who don't know:

Alpha

Bravo

Charlie

Delta

Echo

Foxtrot

Golf

Hotel

India

Juliet

Kilo

Lima

Mike

November

Oscar

Papa

Quebec

Romeo

Sierra

Tango

Uniform

Victor

Whiskey

X-ray

Yankee

Zulu

The story takes place in INDIA. It's a romantic tale between two young lovers ROMEO and JULIET. Juliet was from the ZULU cast and Romeo from the LIMA. Romeo and Juliet fell in love and soon Juliet's PAPA found out. He, along with his son VICTOR tried their best to separate the two lovers. They went to the extent of sending her off to the town of SIERRA thinking Romeo wouldn't be able to find her. But the young lover did find his lady love as Juliet had sent an ALPHA numeric coded message by the hand of a servant to give to Romeo. They secretly booked a flight with DELTA airlines and flew to QUEBEC in NOVEMBER. Once there, they rejoiced at their freedom and did the FOXTROT right in the middle of the airport. They were ecstatic at their love succeeding that they yelled from mountain tops till they could hear an ECHO. They stayed in a HOTEL initially then got jobs and eventually married.

Settled in that peaceful province, they were blessed with a baby boy who they named MIKE after Juliet's father. Their family was complete when they bought OSCAR, an adorable golden retriever into their lives. As is the case with all Indian women, Juliet stopped taking care of herself and put on one too many a KILO. But Romeo still loved her the same.

Papa and Victor however hadn't stopped looking for Juliet. It was a matter of their family pride. Papa had become an alcoholic as he took to drinking a lot of WHISKEY. He hurt himself in his drunken state one day and had to get an X-RAY done. The x-ray revealed a broken hip. Papa rested while Victor carried on with the search.

Victor was able to get in touch with a man of UNIFORM named CHARLIE. Although originally a YANKEE Charlie was a well connected man even in Quebec. They tracked down the couple to which Papa said, 'BRAVO my son! Now go get Juliet back.' Victor being an obedient son went with Charlie to Quebec. He realized that Romeo and Juliet do very much indeed love each other. Confused he called Papa and told him. Papa initially didn't agree to a Lima cast being connected to his family but then found out about his grandson Mike. Papa's heart softened. Papa and Victor accepted Romeo into the family and every Sunday the men bonded by playing GOLF. Thus, everyone lived happily ever after. :)

The Mystery which is Me!

2011-02-09T13:40:00.008+05:00

I'm sad when I'm happy,

I feel good when things are crappy.

I laugh when I'm upset,

I remember things more when I forget.

In a crowd I feel alone,

It's always the important things I postpone.

I talk the most when I'm quiet,

I always eat more when I'm on a diet.

I stay awake all night and sleep in the morning,

I overlook advice, even when it's a friendly warning.

I become laid back when faced with an issue,

I cry the most when I don't have a tissue.

I let major problems roll off my back and focus on the little ones,

I don't follow the shows as much as I watch the reruns.

I eat eggs without the yolks,

I become serious when someone jokes.

I lose interest in my passion,

I follow trends when they go out of fashion.

I watch less of the originals and more of the remakes,

I feel in love the most when my heart breaks.

The effect of you on me.

2011-02-09T13:29:00.005+05:00

In you I see strength, power

You standby to support me like a tower.

You make me laugh till my stomach hurts,

I don't know how they can affect me they're just words.

You hold my hand comforting me always,

Without you by me I'm a lost girl in hallways.

When I see you walk towards me in a crowded place,

I glow with pride and turn to you with a smile on my face.

You have a way to bring out the best in me,

It's as if someone has set my troubled soul free.

No one in this world can be compared to you,

With every breath I take I know what I feel is true.

You give me hope and encouragement when I least expect it,

Making me feel good and cheering me up with your clever wit.

You know all my inner most thoughts,

You're unlike the others, pas faux.

Everything you've said to me is printed in my memory,

You've helped lift the coating on my brain of emery.

You are the reason I look forward to each day.

I wear my heart on my sleeve for all to see as a proud display.

I want us to spend a lifetime and grow old together.

For I know there's no chance for me to love another.

Be the first for my vision day and night,

I wait impatiently for the day our souls unite.

Journey back to you.

2011-02-09T13:23:00.006+05:00

If I ever lose my way, promise to help me find my way back,

I know it won't be easy coz it's such a setback.

If I forget who I really am remind me as you have always done,

You're the only person I can depend on in the long run.

If I ever look at you without love, make me see us through your eyes,

I want you to be creative, I want you to improvise.

If I forget all the memories we've shared together, then help me relive them,

You've always been my rock, my special gem.

The Beginning of the End

2011-02-08T14:11:00.007+05:00

I met a guy who showed me how to love,

Caring and understanding, like an angel from above.

His eyes so innocent and pure,

Had me feeling like a lady, so demure.

He was able to understand me like no other,

When I thought of life without him I felt a shudder,

He would hold my hand when we would walk,

I could feel our souls connect as we would talk.

He was all I could think or talk about,

I loved him with my heart and soul without a doubt.

When he sang to me he sounded like a nightingale,

Not feminine or pansy, he sang like a male.

His one smile could make all my problems go away,

When he was around me my heart felt like clay.

My friends though happy for me, envied the love we had,

They'd complain to their partners by comparing us in turn making the other mad.

I would feel warm and secure in his hug,

I knew the feeling wouldn't last, someone would pull the plug.

My world came crashing down one fine day.

Just thinking of life without him I began to sway.

I don't regret anything in the past,

Every minute we spent together I had a blast.

Now I live with the pain and void in my heart,

Waiting for a new beginning, a new start.

Uncertainty

2011-02-08T14:06:00.007+05:00

Will you still love me every morning,

When I wake up all grumpy and frowning?

Will I still be desirable to you,

When I yell for things you don't have a clue?

Will you stand by me through thick and thin,

Even if at some point I should sin?

Will you find me beautiful when wrinkles appear?

You know growing old and ugly is something I always fear.

Will we still remain friends as we are now,

Can I take your word for it, can we make it a vow?

Will you in the future feel insecure and jealous,

Will your behaviour towards me turn callous?

Will you always remain this funny,

Even if burdened and faced with hardships and no money?

Will you always be this understanding and caring,

It is after all a life together we'll be sharing.

Perhaps I ask too many questions in my state of uncertainty,

These questions may very well stem from my own insecurity.

The real question though is will you always remain true to me?

I guess I'll have to wait patiently for the future to unfold and see.

Now vs Then

2011-02-08T13:58:00.006+05:00

It's sad how almost everyone around me hasn't a clue about their future. I mean, we've all got jobs in the present but all of this feels temporary and for the moment. Hardly any of my friends are happy in their jobs or are in an entirely different career altogether from their passion.

I sometimes feel my parents generation had gotten it right. There weren't many options, not a lot of stress or worries about the pursuit of happiness. They were content with what they had and made peave with what they couldn't get.

I feel our generation has generated so many new jobs and career paths it leads an individual not just in a confused state but that of uncertainty. We keep experimenting and growing more confused with the knowledge and wisdom gained.

The irony is, most of the times this pursuit of happiness leads to temporary bliss leaving an individual craving for that blissful feeling in another experience. In other words there just isn't any satisfying us!

I look around and see unhappy people drowning their dissatisfaction into more work or mindless activities such as boozing or partying. Yes, our generation is far more social which again leads us to the root cause of all evil. Money! Socializing doesn't come cheap hence a 'temporary' job is taken to pay the bills. This ofcourse is not the main reason for why most of us work. It literally is to pay the bills.

Apart from work, our generation is away too addicted to technology. We did afterall develop and see too many changes in our lifetime. Be it fashion, electronics or vehicles. We also are too expressive for our own good. Documenting each thought and experience leaving no privacy in our lives. It makes me wonder though, what changes Gen Next holds for us.

Reminiscing

2011-02-07T22:36:00.004+05:00

I think of you

When I pass by the roads we drove on.

Times when we'd be out till the break of dawn.

I remember you

When it rains and how we'd get wet together.

We both used to look forward to such changes in the weather.

I recollect times with you

When we'd go out on fancy dinners.

With you by my side I felt like a lottery winner.

I think back

To all the the times you made me feel so loved.

You were my one and only, my beloved.

The Stages of a Relationship in the 21st Century.

2011-02-02T15:14:00.010+05:00

I was sitting and reflecting on the different stages of relationships last night. Of course this isn't the outcome of all relationships and neither am I claiming to be an expert in this field. But this particular post is on the basis of personal experience and experiences from a majority of my friends relationships.

Stage 1: The attraction.

This phase is your post hook up phase. The usual seeing the person and deep sighs, racing pulses, butterflies in the tummy, sudden sweating, rambling, lost in thoughts/daydreams. After this the person becomes restless and impatient to try and talk/get to know the other person. This goes without saying all sorts of creative ways are used to do this. The use of mutual friends, accidental meetings, etc.

Stage 2: The wooing.

Once the contact information is exchanged (mostly phone numbers in some weird cases IM IDs) days and nights become one. The two people getting to know each other are so occupied they end up spending hours together on the phone while their social life goes for a toss. Friends and hobbies take a backseat.

Stage 3: The falling in love.

Finally they fall in love. All is well in lala land when one falls in love. Everything seems amazing about the other person, all romantic songs seem like they're expressing your feelings towards the other person. Also, daring acts which a few months seemed impossible and even sappy are done when a person falls in love. Promises are made, secrets are shared and you feel this person is your soulmate. Your better half!

Stage 4: The taking the partner for granted.

Eventually the fizzle burns out and a routine sets in. The excitement about meeting the person vanishes and other things take priority over the partner. Suddenly things like work, projects, assignments and friends become important again.

Stage 5: The Denial.

This generally happens when one partner refuses to admit or face the problems. Why? Mainly because they try to hold on to what was. Apart from the changes they're afraid to face the truth about what the outcome will be when the problem is tackled. It could result in an unpleasant turn in their relationship, like a dent. Sometimes the problems are too many so it feels better to just pretend they don't exist.

Stage 6: The punching bag.

This generally happens as a result of built up frustration and resentment. The other partner becomes the source for all the venting. Sometimes to spite or irritate the other person mean things are said and done. This may be as a result of trying to make the other person feel the same pain they're feeling. It could also be because you try to see if there are any feelings. By this stage the other partner has become so emotionless and indifferent any sort of emotion makes Partner no. 2 feel there's still hope. They grasp at straws to make the relationship work.

Stage 7: The repulsion.

All the sweet things said and done are forgotten. Everything that first attracted you to this person is now the very reason you don't want to be with them anymore. Just being in the same room is an effort in itself. You can't stand them anymore and are disgusted by everything they say or do. Partner no. 1 by now is so upset with their partner they do all they can to put them down and don't hide their feelings of repulsion even in another's company. Quarrels and fights move from behind closed doors to washing dirty laundry in public.

Stage 8: The breaking up.

By now the next step is but the inevitable. Sometimes another stage takes place before this step. It could be that of cheating on your partner or it could be the break up stage. You crave for your freedom and to get away from that partner but feel remorse thinking about how it all came down to this.

Stage 9: The reflecting.

This stage usually makes one wonder if what happened can be rekindled again. A lot of reflecting on the past is done and although the break is official, time apart does allow another to think more clearly without feelings being involved. When one partner is doing this the other is plotting ways to try and get back together.

Stage 10: The letting go.

Finally both part ways. Usually the one who wanted things to work out has no choice so agrees with the others decision thinking they can try to work things out again if there's a temporary separation. In extreme cases cowards choose to approach the 'friends' angle thinking if their partner can see them as a friend again then they still have a chance to keep their ex partner close and make their move again when the opportunity arises.

Stage 11: The last shot.

Generally this is the last phase. Despite the separation and the lack of communication trying one last time is attempted by one partner while the other has moved on. Sometimes, it's more difficult for one to let go off the relationship than the other. This may result it frequent phone calls and follow ups. Sometimes just hearing that firm 'it's over' is enough to end it. Very few people are able to become 'friends' after the breakup. It's ofcourse nothing close to a friendship but they are able to update each other about what's happening once in a while and sometimes catch up. Other times they don't see each other again purposely to avoid the uncomfortable feelings comes with a break up.

Either ways, it's another sad end to a relationship. So, much for a happily ever after!

Never Again

2011-02-02T15:03:00.005+05:00

Thoughts before I sleep:

Never again will those eyes bore into my soul,

Never again will I let those sweet words make me feel whole.

Never again will I lose myself in the warmth of that embrace,

Never again will I smile when that hand touches my face.

Never again will I let that touch excite me,

Never again will I shed tears for him to see.

Never again will I allow those memories to be replayed in my head,

Never again will I allow myself to feel so dead.

Never again will I think the relationship was a bliss,

Coz never again will I ever be his!

Without you.

2011-02-01T22:22:00.005+05:00

I often imagine what you're doing,

are you awake and thinking about me?

Whenever you close your eyes,

Is it my face that you see?

Visions of what we used to be,

Keeping floating around in my mind.

You were the only one who held the key,

Making me believe love like ours was hard to find.

You ripped my heart out,

with your indifference and lies,

leaving no place within me for any doubt,

leading our relationship to a path of good byes.

You used to be my best friend,

Sharing my every feeling and thought.

Now it's all over, it's all come to an end,

never imagined it would have ended with the way that we fought.

I often wondered every night,

why did I depend so much on you

to make things so right,

life is so much better without you making me feel blue.

I will be happy again in the arms of another,

you will just be another chapter in my life,

he won't be one to smother,

Thanking the most I won't have to deal anymore with all that strife.

Even a lifetime isn't enough!

2011-02-01T15:08:00.003+05:00

When is it that you can say you really know someone?

Is it through the tender words,

the jokes,

the loving glances,

the fun times,

the promises,

the long conversations,

the intimate moments?

Is it through the uncertainties,

the past,

the insecurities,

the fights,

the lies,

the tears,

the ego,

the depression?

Happy Birthday Misb!

2011-01-27T15:19:00.006+05:00

My dearest sister Misbah,

You're not here with us to celebrate your birthday this year but I'm sure you're having fun with Shaan and family! :)

Just thought I'd write something for you to let you know what you mean to me...Thought why not blog it while I'm at it :)

Words can't describe what you mean to me. It's no secret that I love you with all my heart. You've been my best friend ever since I can remember. It's been one heck of a journey till here and you've always guided me, protected me, covered for me and been there for me no matter what. You've been my role model all my life. Despite my many flaws you've always accepted me the way that I am.

You've taught me to never judge people (which I feel is my best quality), to be understanding, patient, caring and loving. Without your love and affection my heart would have been made of complete stone by now.

I miss you terribly now that you're gone. The feeling of incompleteness will be with me my entire life. But I find solace and comfort in the fact that you're spending the rest of your life with the man of your dreams pursuing what you've always wanted to. I pray that your happy ending we used to imagine when we use to play Barbie games together as kids, remains happy for the rest of your life.

I wish and pray for your good health, happiness and success in the next phase of your life. I will always love you and turn to you for guidance and support in the years to come as well. So, go on, life your life and continue to make us proud in all that you do as you have always done. :)

To end it, as I usually do, here's a sisterly poem for you...Not by me...But I liked it....

My sister

She is my sister, not by blood
But rather by love
When i cry she wipes away the tears
When i hide she takes away my fears

Always and forever will i love my sister
Faithful and loyal she does remain
Protecting me from a world of despise
Listening to everyone of my cries

With arms wide open she nurtures me
and keeps away all that is wrong
She keeps me on track, never letting me stray
To my suggestions she will never say 'nay'

Thank you my sister for all that you have done
For without you all would be wrong
I love you my sister, with all my heart I do
The love for my sister is all true.

When a heart goes 'Snap Crackle Pop'

2011-01-26T21:50:00.005+05:00

I've always believed the visually visible pain a person can feel is far worse than one that you can't see. Heartbreak, the one emotion that helps instigate a million other emotions. Including both good and bad ones. It's amazing how at the time of the relationship one can feel so amazing and at the top of their game but the minute that bubble bursts and the relationship is over everything you did or said becomes meaningless. It all seems childish and ridiculous even!

The very fact that you thought you shared your inner most thoughts and feelings with that person which becomes all for nothing the minute they're out of your life!

The never ending pain just doesn't go away no matter what. Of course wise people say the best healer is time itself but with time patience is needed. The pain and pieces of a broken heart can't be mended in a matter of days or sometimes even months. People have different ways to deal with it but at the end deep down we all feel like losers at some stage. Hours, days even weeks can go by lost in thoughts of the past with no control over neither emotions nor thoughts!

How do you deal with a heartbreak?

Is ignoring the feeling or that person an answer? Or is throwing yourself at the mercy of keeping yourself occupied without allowing a single second to pass where you have to think about that person.

The walls we build, the egos we try to save, the barriers we put, the shields we use to protect ourselves are of no use. Love and pain go hand in hand. Unfortunately, pain is an unavoidable part of life which we need to face time and time again!

Old wine in a new bottle.

2011-01-18T01:06:00.005+05:00

Lately I have been going on this reading spree with the ample time that I have while resting at home. It's amazing how all this reading has really helped improved my reading speed which was pretty impressive to begin with! I've finished 7 books within this month itself...And it's only the 18th today!

I was lucky and smart enough to 'invest' in books in advance. I spent a bomb on just book shopping sprees.

I decided I'll buy books by Indian authors for three reasons. They're cheaper than the International ones (sometimes I do look for quantity rather than quality), they're good timepass (read light reading) and lastly coz I feel like I'm helping out folks who had the courage to follow their passion and dreams. At least they put themselves out there and did what they liked.

Of course this new obsession of mine has it's downsides. Like, all of them have THE SAME STORY LINE!!! Seriously folks, we know about Engineering college life thanks to Chetan Bhagat. Yes, he beat you all to it! Not once but bloody three or four times!! All of them that I've read, 'Just like the movies, Of course I love you....till I meet somebody else, All the small things (or something like that)' and God only can remember the rest coz I've chucked them deeeeeeeeeeep into the depths of my bookshelf. I can only read these books once and not again because not only have I predicted what will happen within the first 5 mins of reading it (MUST start skimming through these books beforehand at the store itself...but then defeats the purpose of helping them make a career out of writing! Damn it! Confused!!) there's also nothing interesting in their style of writing that sets one book apart from the rest. Although I must say 'Of course I love you' made me chuckle more than the other books...But the book did nothing to me to write raves about!

I wish one of these fresh out of college students wrote about something APART from how their characters were kaamchors when it came to studying, cheated, lied, were obsessed with sex, flirted, dumped girls, hang out spots, had loser/druggie friends, found a girlfriend who they had to fight a la filmy style to be with and lastly they had no aim in life only to have had things workout for them in the end.

Let's just hope their second books are something other than this done to death plot!!!

Second Chances

2011-01-10T13:27:00.003+05:00

Second chances

I was listening to this song Second Chances by Shinedown (awesome band!!) and it got me thinking about how many people are given a second chance in life? A chance to make things right. A chance to make up for all that could and probably should have been done right the first time around. A chance to relive those moments and experience all those wonderful things again. A chance to experience potential bliss!

I firm believer in when you least expect it things happen for the best I am amongst the fortunate to get that chance. Not once but twice for two non connected and different things. Both being equally important!

I don’t know how I will do with this second chance given by God. But I know that I will never take this chance for granted. Although scared for doing what I am famous for, screwing it up, I also look forward to seeing if this second chance will help make things right this time around for me. Let’s hope and pray for the best. :)

A chance to hear the song I was talking about!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H25ORRgLxdA

Taking note of The Notebook!

2011-01-09T16:24:00.006+05:00

It's no secret that I love the movie 'The Notebook'. Recently I was asked why do I love it so much...At the time I came up with really good answers and wish I had actually written it down...Coz I rarely speak so well about something...But I did for this movie and although I can't remember what I said earlier I have a whole new set of reasons for why I love the movie. It's only natural that I would write about the greatest movie ever!!...At least according to me! :)

I love that a summer romance can be more than something casual...It can be something serious.
I love that Noah and Alley's love allows the other to explore and find out about themselves rather than force the other to become what the other wants.
Their relationship is a union of choice and not force.
I love it because it showcases the innocence of love.
I love that even the most simplest and day to day routines can be enjoyed and loved if done with the right person.
I love that Noah can love Alley without going over the top, mushy and being all sissy about it.
It shows that two people who are meant to be together will find a way to be together.
It shows that despite faults you can still love someone unconditionally.
Noah's love for Alley is amazing because it helps make him a better man in so many ways.
I love that he loves her almost to the point of insanity.
The movie shows that life does give you second chances. Better make the most of what you'll get.
It also shows never to take the other for granted otherwise once the person's gone a part of you is gone with them.
That you gotta have faith no matter how difficult and unfair the situation you're in may be.
I love that it shows you can always be romantic no matter what your age.
I also love that it showed that when you truly love someone you can let them go and they really do come back to you.
That it is possible to love more than one but the 'one' the so called soulmate will be different from others.
It's possible to live without the person but yet not possible to live without that person. I.E. they moved on with their lives yet couldn't let go.
That you can let your guard down around the person you love and be yourself.
That even though you know that person has hurt you and will continue hurting you you will still love them.

Although I know that such kind of love is only for the movies...Yes, the pessimist in me will not be quietened down!...It's still lovely to see such a well made movie...Read the book recently and I still say the movie's better...Though the book's more practical...Explains a lot of questions I had in the movie...Nothing can capture the chemistry of people in love like that in a movie.

P.S. 3 years now and The Notebook still remains in the top 5 of my all time favorite movies list. :)

God's own Country

2011-01-09T15:04:00.035+05:00

I finally found the pics I took when I went to Kerala with Tiku. One of the best trips I've been on...Must do this more often! :)

On the way to Kerala

This is what travelling Saba looks like! A complete behenji :p

Our entertainment for the journey.

View from the Train of Northern Kerala.

Tiku's house! :)

The talented and gifted Kishore. Our first meeting after some 4-5 years. :)

:DDDDD When two of my best friends meet!

My gift for Kishi...Amazing how we both gifted each other something to do with time! :)

Kishore's gift to me!...A spankin' new Fastrack watch which he surprised me with...Sneaky!! :)

Outside a temple...Man, considering both of us are non Hindu's we had to sneak in and pretend that we were NRI's who came to the temple for worship...though my expressions and lost behavior was a dead give away! :)

The zoooooooo:

The cool bear who responds to our beck and call!

Randoms:

Don't even get me started on this pic...I can't believe this was there smack in the middle of the road for all to see. The perverts prob have a field day looking at this...Really embarrassing!...Families and kids walking around looking at this nude woman...

Hehehehehe...The last one cracks me up!

Pervert!!...Damn frustrated sculptor!

Yup...Panicker's travel...I still chuckle over that!

A taste of 'Sharjah Shake' :p

Another gift from Kishi to me! :)

I loved this sea world place that we randomly discovered.

Yes folks...U saw right...that's a 'toy' vacuum for a child...Except IT'S NOT A TOY!!...

No One Killed Jessica!

2011-01-09T03:27:00.008+05:00

I saw the movie No one Killed Jessica today. Like any self respecting human being the well made movie evoked various emotions in me such as anger, frustration and deep sadness. I did wish though that the ending was a little more dramatic like perhaps a court scene which showed Manu Sharma hearing the news of not getting away with the crime. The reaction and consequences of those who became hostile witnesses, etc. Nevertheless I loved the movie for showing such brilliant subdued acting and not getting carried away with commercializing the sensitive matter.

It did sadden me though to think about the other unresolved cases in India and worldwide. I mean, justice takes almost a lifetime! It's hard enough dealing with the loss of that member and then waiting and dragging the procedure of attaining justice for decades seems not just unfair but outright cruel!

How is one supposed to move on when there's a constant reminder of such a horrid crime committed? Once again I am sickened by the sort of society we live in where without a public furror nothing in India seems to work on in the favour of the common man.

We are fortunate though that we have such passionate people out there who would go to any extent along with the media to see that justice is served. I just pray and hope that we can bring about a change at least for the next generation to live in a safer India!

The details of the Jessica Lal case are on:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jessica_Lal

Cases of more rich bigwigs/influencial people trying to get away with murder are:

V Day Blues?

2011-01-06T16:14:00.005+05:00

Valentine's day is next month and most of my friends are fretting about what to do that day...I personally don't believe in celebrating that day but I did think of a poem which I dedicate to all the single ladies like me! :)

Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
For it is just a day like any other.
Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
Because you have no lover.

Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
Don't you dare be sad.
Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
Your life isn't that bad.

Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
You have ones that love you so.
Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
They will never ever let you go.

Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
Be happy with what you've got.
Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
Don't give sadness another thought.

Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
Because you have no love.
Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
Rather look to the heavens above.

Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
Your destiny has been set.
Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
Love and happiness you will someday get.

Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
I know you are unsatisfied.
Don't feel low on Valentines Day,
You some day will be a beautiful bride.

Just like the movies.

2011-01-03T14:25:00.004+05:00

I didn't watch as many movies as I should I have or for that matter wanted to...Don't get me wrong...My 1TB external hardisk is overflowing with movies...I download like there's no tomorrow...But I just couldn't be bothered to sit and watch movies like I did the year before.

I can proudly say I managed to break free from my Internet-Facebook addiciton...It was becoming really scary!...I would have a serious conversation with someone while chatting with friends on FB.

Anyway, I did manage to watch a few movies and liked the below for 2010:

1. Grown Ups---After a very long time got to see a clean fun comedy which one can watch with the family.

2. Ninja Assasin---My memory's horrible so I can't say that this movie released in 2010 but I know I saw it then!...So it still counts in this list...The action and martial arts in this movie had me frothing at the mouth!...It wasn't over the top amazing but heck Rain made me drool over his mysterious Ninja ways.

3. Inception---Too much hype killed the movie for me. It didn't meet my expectations but I can't deny it was a good movie...It's not like you come across thought provoking movies like this every year! :)

4. Daybreakers---FINALLY a vampire movie without the nonsense of romance!...I dunno why but I really liked the movie. I guess it was to do with how they showed the whole angle of being a vampire in a different way.

5. Once Upon a time in Mumbai---I generally hate ANYTHING to do with Emraan Hashmi and for that matter don movies...I mean they've been done to death! But I did like this movie. Ajay's acting and character in the movie as well as Hashmi's rise to the top in the underworld was shown in a very sensitive way. I mean the way it was presented was not about violence but the human angle of it all.

6. Date Night---Steve Carell! I will watch anything and everything he comes out with. It did have me chuckling in many a scenes. Especially the ones with Mark Wahlberg.

7. Macgruber---This one had me cracking up at it's pathetic humor and ridiculous storyline. I appreciated the corny and lame comedy because it really does have scenes which I never thought I would ever see in movies!

8. Wake Up Sid---Again...was this 2010?...I'm too lazy to Google the damn thing...But I did like this movie a lot...Ranbir and Konakana's acting was awesome...Shot beautifully with a very realistic touch to the story.

9. Rajneeti---The movie was watchable but the bloody pure hindi dialogues were a real pain!...The movie was good with my Arjun Rampal looking SO DAMN HOT!!!! Drool...droooooooooooollllllll....maaaaaaaaaaaaaajor drooooool!...Ok...enough!...The first time I saw the movie I was giving cow eyes to Arjun and just waiting for him to come back on the big screen...the second time I saw it I was looking beyond my extreme and loyal love for my Arjun and paid attention to the movie...Was a good watch.

10. Dabangg---The surprise package!...I didn't particularly enjoy the movie but I did appreciate Salman's attempt at acting...If you can even call it that...I figured he just forgot how to act after all these years of shuffling between dead pan-constipated expressions.

I know there were a lot better movies than these...But as I said...I developed a life this year and stopped being a couch potato...My movie marathon mania finally came to an end! :)

The Next Chapter

2011-01-01T11:51:00.005+05:00

THE COLLAGE HAS BEEN BLURRED ON PURPOSE! :)

2010 brought about the biggest changes in my life...I simply loved it!...Despite all the drama, stress and tension I really came through as a much stronger and better person. The highs and lows of nostalgia engulfed me when I reflected on this year...

The year started off with me surprising all by becoming an Assistant Manager for a company I had always hoped I would get a second chance to work with. I had left in a hurry for personal reasons and always felt regret for not knowing how far I would get. I have now realized if it wasn't for the people in this company(my friends know who they are!) it wouldn't be an experience worthy of fighting so hard for.

The things I learned in 2010:

I learned to be a lot more patient.

I learned to not let things affect me that I have no control over.

I learned to be more forgiving.

I learned that my confidence and self esteem are back...Maybe they never left...But may have faded with time.

I learned that the separation of a loved one doesn't mean that they don't love you anymore.

I learned life gives you second chances and you should grab it with both hands.

I learned to get along with people who I didn't.

I learned that I am not as chicken shit as I thought I was. My trip to Bhubhaneshwar was my 'out there' feat.

I learned that although I may not meet my best friend or talk to him for 4 years I can pick up from where we left off.

I learned to have fun.

I learned to be a better friend and person.

I learned to start fighting for whats's right.

I learned to trust.

I learned that if you love, care and trust someone enough you can overlook/ignore even the biggest things.

I learned to give good advice and be the pillar of support I would want my friends to be.

I learned to be a pirate! :p Yes, my pirating business is at it's prime...Movies...songs...sitcoms...books...videos...you name it I download it!

I learned to move on in life.

I learned that looking back in your past doesn't have to be painful.

I learned that I made some amazing new friends who I hope will be with me for life.

I learned that I can let go off my fears.

I learned that I can do anything for those who I love.

I learned I'm not THAT bad of a dancer (Misbah's Manjay! :p)

I learned a lot professionally too. Learned how to use excel, create attractive splashes, etc.

I also learned that no matter how badly you slog it out if you don't work smart that work means nothing!

I learned to emotionally detach myself from a situation and assess situations coming up with what I feel would be the right sort of decision.

I learned to basically enjoy my year even through the down phases I learned to never lose faith.

I learned religion is more embibbed in me than I thought.

I learned my personality has done a 360 from the year before.

I learned that sometimes you may come across some people who you thought were important but time and God reveals their purpose in your life all at the right time.

I learned that true love does exist (Misb and Shaan!).

I learned Baj (the woman of many talents) has one more talent that we didn't know off. She's amazing academically!

I learned that perceptions can be changed if you're patient enough.

But most importantly I learned to love another with all my heart despite getting burned in the process. I don't care anymore about the hurt because the experience showed me a part of me existed which I wasn't even aware of. I will use this knowledge in the future and try to make it a prosperous one!

Looking forward to 2011...May you bring in more changes and a lot more happiness than 2010! :)

Ode to Sylvia Plath

2010-12-12T12:59:00.003+05:00

Although not one of my own poems ( I can't write half as good as this) I still loved it!

There’s a hole in my soul,
so wide and so vast,
it gives me no future
and leaves me no past.
Remorse and regrets,
for the choices I’ve made,
now hammer my brain.
in a living cascade,
of roads left un-taken
and paths unexplored,
of things that I’ve longed for,
of those gone ignored.

Dreams of the dreams,
and of what might have been,
the costs for time wasted,
the wages of sin.
Procrastination,
it taking those turns,
the places I’ve passed by,
where bridges were burned.
The loss of those moments
that can’t be replaced,
a world of ‘what if’s? ’
is what I now face.

Oh my mind is so fraught,
my will vastly frozen,
with thoughts of those choices,
that I’ve never chosen.
With time that elapses,
so quickly somehow,
to bring me this day,
the here and the now.
I’m drinking the bottom.
the grounds in the brew,
with a mind full of memories
of the things I can’t do.

I would wish to return to
that moment in time,
where all possibilities,
were possibly mine.
Where I was a writer
of meaningful verse,
where I found acceptance
and knew my life's worth.
As my breath is cut short
by my own foolish hand,
I will tell you, I'm sorry,
it's not want I planned.

Jane Van Doe

City of Nawabs met the City of Temples

2010-10-03T12:05:00.004+05:00

I had taken a short trip to Bhubhaneswhar a while ago and finally decided to end the procrastination and put up some pics... The city was AMAZING which of course goes without saying...Except for the horrible weather and the languge barrier (I could barely understand a word they were saying) all had gone well on that trip...I also got to meet one of my really good friends who I call Panda (long story). I ended up making a new good friend and felt the independence one should feel when travelling alone. So here's giving you all a taste of my trip via these pics.

P.S. I'm still on the hunt for pics from my trip to Bangalore, Delhi, Kerala and Goa.

Panda!

Some randoms:

A few at the zoo:

Once Upon a Fairytale...

2010-10-02T23:09:00.012+05:00

There once was a pretty little girl from a time before thee,
She dreamed of a Knight in shining armor, oh how he would be!

Tall, dark and handsome,
With perfect teeth
and not too large feet.
He'll have strong hands,
Oh, what a man!
Hair so straight and silky,
With a complexion so healthy and milky.
The smile of an Angel to make hearts melt,
Lips so tender and soft they'd feel like felt.

Then one day as she walked the streets aimlessly.
Lo and behold, who does she see?
Her Knight in shining armor!
Could it really be?
Feeling as if she dreamed him to life truly,
She ran to him and hugged him ever so tightly.

"Oh my handsome Knight
For you I have waited my entire life.
Take me in your arms forever.
Make me the happiest woman alive,
make me your wife!"

The Knight looked at her and said softly:

"Marry you I can't my fair lady.
Fate played a joke so cruelly.
Married I already am so happily.
My wife just delivered our first baby!
But seeing your beauty so untouched and pure,
I must have you that's for sure.
Believe me o fair lady, I promise, you I will truly adore."

Disgusted the fair maiden released his tight grip and ran free.

"Why oh why God did this happen to me?
My Knight who I loved differs in reality."

Hearing her cry with a heart so heavy,
Came the town's hideous hunchback to stroke her head affectionately.

He said, "Be my wife o lady.
I'll treat you kindly."

Repulsed, his appearance was all she could see.
Because of which his care and affection could not feel she.
Dejected he turned to her kind sister who accepted his proposal with glee.
For he loved her so much he worshiped her totally.
Seeing their love and compatibility,
Missing out on a chance to live happily,
She cried once more and asked God to hear her plee.
A young Lord passing by heard her and decided to make her family.
Vowed he did agreeing to marry her and be together till eternity.

Years pass and she turns twenty.
Her beauty blossoms till she becomes the object of all the townsmens' fantasy.
The angry Lord imprisons his beautiful lady.
Stating her beauty's for only him and not for all to see.
Seeing her grow more and more beautiful he's overcome with jealousy.
He starts abusing his wife trying to mar her appearance by kicking her with his knee.
She cries as she says it's no fault of hers since her curse lies in her beauty.
The beatings continue and he eventually treats her indifferently.
Weeping she prays to God to set her free.
Battered and bruised she lays alone in a tower to which only the Lord has the key.
She cries her eyes out as there's no one to love her, no company.
She eventually gives up all unsuccessful attempts to flee.
Night after night she prays to soon stop breathing completely...

Underdogs!

2010-08-18T15:22:00.006+05:00

Okay...So I saw The Karate Kid today...The 2010 version...I admit...I'm a little biased towards Jaden Smith because I've always had a soft spot for Will Smith when I was growing up...Remember Fresh Prince of Bel Air?...

The movie itself didn't really hold any new feats because we've all seen the original Karate Kid and we know how the story goes...Gotta hand it to Jayden for looking cute and getting his Kung Fu moves right(at least it looked that way to me!)...It's amazing how these guys can learn such things so quickly...I mean...Doesn't it take people years to get to a fighting stage??...The cobra scene in the movie had me just roll my eyes and say "just ignore the damn thing!"....

Actually...It does make me wonder though, how many times will Hollywood churn out the 'underdog' story?...It's almost in every movie with some minor changes....Now I'm not saying the movies that have this theme aren't great...Of course they are!!...But you know what's going to happen!...And...Well...You kinda wish there was something new to offer instead of the cliches....

Miracle...Rudy....Billy Elliot...Rocky...Remember the Titans....Lord of the Rings....Braveheart...The Last Samurai...Little Giants...Revenge of the Nerds...The Shawshank Redemption...Milk....Happy Gilmore... Gladiator....Cinderella Man....The Karate Kid...

There are SO many more movies which I can't seem to remember now...

Sex and the City 2

2010-08-17T19:06:00.008+05:00

My sister and I subjected ourselves to some major torture on Sunday night...We saw Sex and the City 2....(Is it just me or are there hardly any good movies being made nowadays??)...I couldn't BELIEVE how ignorant and insensitive the makers and actors of the movie were to even dish out crap like this in the first place?? They didn't even attempt to understand the Muslim culture and kept scoffing and looking down at it instead...I mean...I thought cliches were behind us and we were beyond the days of looking at India as the land of snake charmers and the Gulf countries as backwards, camel riding, religious fanatics!

I'm still trying to understand what the point of this movie was...Was it just to display the hideous fashion?...I mean the stuff in there was literally garish and repulsive!..I'm not a fashionista but clearly something is wrong if you go 'camel riding' in flowing gowns with a trail and a turban on your head!.....or was the point of the movie to show the whole female empowerment thing??...Cause there wasn't any of that!!....Well...Maybe one scene of Miranda standing up to her boss...But other than that...Nothing!

It's disturbing to see 'successful, confident and fashionable' women pretend they're 20 something year olds!...No one was acting their age!!!...Of course...It's understood when you meet up with your best girl friends there is an excited maybe even childish side of you that comes out...But trust me...That didn't happen in this movie!!...

There were so many images and scenes that either scarred my eyes or made my blood boil...Liza Minelli's singing and scantily clad dancing routine....the hideous outfits and the importance given to them...Carrie looking like an ungracefully aging transvestite!...the complete mockery of marriage and relationships (“make your own rules in your own relationship”)....A horny alleged 50 something year old Samantha's love making scenes....the unnecessary extravagance (I get that it's all about the bling but I'm pretty damn sure NO place looks like that unless it's from the sets of Lawrence of Arabia!)....the fact that non existent issues were shown and focused on and not even resolved...seems all you need to do is just turn your back on your problems and walk away for sometime so they magically disappear!...the complete lack of ignorance for these oh-so-glamorous women (getting a full time nanny...flying coach!...The horror!! The pain!!!)...Samantha's crude scenes about sex...The jabs and open opposition towards a culture not understood by any of the halfwits in the movie and of course...the lack of respect for your surroundings!....

In short...The movie was a nightmare!

Khatta Meetha

2010-08-16T20:48:00.006+05:00

I don't know WHAT possessed me to watch this movie...But I did...I actually forced myself to sit through the entire movie....True, it took me almost 5 hrs to watch it because I kept taking a break in between...But I have this horrible habit that if I start something I HAVE to finish it...

I wish I could say some part of the movie was nice...But the truth is it sucked pretty bad!...There were A LOT of unanswered questions in the movie for me....

1) Why did Priyadarshan torture us for almost 1 1/2 hrs to drive the same point that Akshay Kumar's a no good loser who is a fraud and brings disgrace to his family? He could have established this point in 15 mins rather than test our patience and tolerance levels!

2) Akshay's aim in life was to get a road roller and again, another 1 1/2 hrs of the movie was spent with him trying to get it to solve his financial problems...He finally does get it and Johnny Lever wrecks it...Now the mystery is what happened to the damn road roller?! Because we don't see it in the second half of the movie...You actually ask yourself was it worth Priyadarshan putting us through this torture in the first place?? If the frickin' thing was to be chucked aside THEN WHY WASTE SO MUCH REEL AND OUR TIME FOCUSING ON IT??!

3) What the hell was the whole point of showing the love angle for Trisha and Akshay because it just suddenly comes into focus in the last 15 mins of the movie?!?...Her collated screen time must have been some 20 minutes minus a few songs....

4) Akshay frames Trisha for taking a bribe as she's a Government Commisioner and she tries to commit suicide...Of course...There's no way she'd die!...So she's hospitalized...And Akshay comes to her saying he's a cheat and a fraud to everyone but deep down inside he's still the same 'sacha aur imandar desh bhagth' she had fallen in love with back in college!...Are we expected to believe this crap?? Akshay's shunned and treated like the black sheep of the family because he keeps cheating everyone in the entire village and we're supposed to forget all that and start thinking of him as the 'good guy' all of a sudden???

5) Does Priyadarshan actually expect us to believe that Trisha waited around for a chance encounter with Akshay for almost 10 years?? She claims that the reason she didn't get married was because she was hoping to bump into him one day!...What was to have happened if he was married?...Or had relocated from their hometown to another state?...Or maybe even dead??!

6) Why didn't anyone question why Akshay's sister was beaten black and blue before she died?? Even a blind man could have seen that!

7) What was the whole deal with Akshay's sister being gang raped?? There was literally no point to that...And the worst thing is that everyone's able to move on so easily as if nothing happened!

8) Priyadarshan didn't even bother to waste time or money to make Akshay look younger back in the college days....But hey...If Aamir can do it then I suppose so can Akshay...My only question is...Is there no one on the sets to notice or realize that the exact same current trends and fashion are shown being followed some 10 years ago? I know it's not the first movie to make this mistake but seriously folks!...These little things count!

9) Haven't we seen Akshay in the same kinda roles for the past 15 years?...It was a refreshing change and gave his career a face lift back in the Hera Pheri days...But I honestly feel he's much better of an Actor than this....He was either saying his dialogues in a monotone or screaming and yelling like a banshee! Him making constipated expressions all the time didn't help either...

10) My final question...Why the bloody hell was the movie named Khatta Meetha?? Maybe I missed this part in the movie because I had a glazed look over my eyes while doing a Homer Simpson kinda daydreaming but I tried to understand it later and I just couldn't!

So...My recommendation is to NOT watch this movie at all...No matter what...Do yourselves a favour and watch paint dry instead!

Umbrella

2010-08-14T12:30:00.008+05:00

I know this is mean...But I'm still gonna write it....
On Wednesday I saw something that amused me at my shuttle point. I was waiting for the bus to commute to work in, holding my opened umbrella trying my best to protect myself from the evil sun. I happen to look at the opposite side of the road and I saw an 'Aunty' AKA woman in her 40's-50's. She was wearing a Punjabi style shalwar kameez and sneakers. She had on stylish shades and a jazzy purse snug under her arm and was walking really fast.
So far everything's normal about what I just describe. The amusing part though was this obese Aunty was holding this tiny umbrella to protect herself from the sun. Not only did the umbrella look like it was snatched away from a tiny doll, it was broken too! The only thing that umbrella was protecting were her fingers!!
I only wish I had my camera with me so I could have taken a picture of her. Just to give you all a taste of how funny it seemed to me:

Not me

2010-07-24T23:17:00.005+05:00

For Paltrow!

He thinks so low of me,
the Devil reincarnate,
out to reign destruction on all I meet,
spread about his hate.

I'm an empty vessel,
that's lost without it's soul,
whatever heart I had,
has disappeared long ago.

I've lost all humanity,
led to the darkness,
destroying everything that gets in my way
leaving no live witnesses.

He believes he sees the real me,
who I truly am deep inside,
too set on believing the illusion,
he can't change his mind.

I'm tired of trying to prove my worthiness to him,
totally fed up,
I thought I could ignore his opinions of me,
but I've truly had enough!

He's tearing me apart,
his words cutting like a knife,
out to prove my evilness,
out to ruin my life!

Tiku's Birthday Gift

2010-07-24T13:02:00.004+05:00

I got us matching bracelets for her birthday..... Childish?... Agreed!...But we both loved it! :)

Don't say

2010-07-14T12:10:00.004+05:00

*My poems are dedicated to no one in particular unless I say so. *

Don't say you love me
If you don't care
Don't say forever
If you don't plan on being there.

Don't say you'll listen
If you plan to tune me out
Don't say only me
If it's someone else you care about.

Don't say it's real
If it's really not
Don't say you always will
If you plan to ever stop.

Don't say you won't leave
If you don't plan to stay.
Don't say you love me
If you're going to walk away.

Who I Really Am.

2010-07-01T22:03:00.004+05:00

I am so caught up in the what ifs,
I forget about the maybes.
Trying to make everyone else happy,
Forgetting it's me I need to please.

I tried to be the perfect daughter,
contribute to society,
Be the rock for others to lean on,
Always doing what is expected of me.

I try to live up to all the expectations,
that are thrust down on me,
Pushing aside my own dreams,
Be who I am told to be.

I keep my true self hidden,
I can't show the world,
Afraid I won't be accepted,
Afraid of not being heard.

Could I be loved completely,
For the person I truly am?
Or will I be shunned,
For not being the prodigal woman?

I keep letting others control me,
Bending to their every whim,
But deep in my heart I keep hoping,
They will try to discover the person I really am.

Reflection

2010-06-25T11:52:00.003+05:00

I look at myself
and what do I see?
A young lady
trying her hardest,
to be all that she can be.

I look at myself
and what do I see?
I see strength,
through hard work
and will power.

I look at myself
and what do I see?
I see beauty, intelligence
with some fear of the unknown.

I look at myself
and what do I see?
Talent, growth, wisdom,
brightness
with strong capability.

I look at myself
and what do I see?
I see loneliness,
covered with a smile.
Some pain, some misery
with hopes of tomorrows.

Sorry is NOT the hardest word to say!

2010-06-14T12:01:00.004+05:00

Sorry!

What does this word mean?
Does it mean I'll never do it again?
Does it mean I'll never say it again?
How many times can it be said?
Do you really mean it?
Does saying you're sorry make it all better?
Does being sorry take away all the hurt?
Is being sorry enough?

Sorry...It's the easiest word to say!

Hiss & Tell!

2010-06-08T09:13:00.003+05:00

Yesterday something REALLY freaky happened to me while I was waiting at my shuttle point. Yes! More than half the weird things happening in my life are taking place at that stupid spot!

I was waiting for my shuttle and when I saw a woman standing on the opposite side of the road who was staring at me. I didn’t make anything of it. But she kept staring without moving from that spot. She crossed the road without even looking left or right in a sort of a trance. It was literally like something out of a scary movie. She crossed the road and then walked right passed me. I breathed a sigh of relief as she did so.

She walked a bit of a distance and then I realized that she’s leaving a wet trail behind her. I then realized that she’s urinating and walking simultaneously. Of course, that freaked me out some more! That woman just plopped down on the floor after sometime in a crouching position and kept staring at me. Unfortunately for me there was no one else around who could ‘protect’ me from her.

I noticed she had blood shot eyes and broken, rotten yellow teeth. She didn’t look like she was crazy neither did she look like she belonged to some lower class. She had a clean white saree with pink/purple (can’t remember) flowers on it. The saree looked of decent quality and her hair was tied in a neat bun. Her hair looked washed and she was wearing a thick gold necklace. The necklace was a dead giveaway that she was not some poor woman!

I ignored her and continued waiting for my shuttle. I looked in the other direction for what must have been for only a few seconds and I turned around to see that freaky woman standing in front of me. She was just standing there and staring at me! I asked her in Hindi if she wanted something to which didn’t respond. She then suddenly leaned forward and I thought she’s going to hit me. But instead she hissed at me! HISSED AT ME! Like a cat!...She then just ran off without caring about looking in both directions of the road again.

It goes without saying I was FREAKING out! My first reaction was that she cursed me….Now I don’t know what to make of it. Because I know, I just know that woman didn’t look crazy. She didn’t seem crazy. She was lost in her own world and well….She just didn’t seem like she was alright…I don’t know what to make of it.

To Serve and Protect!

2010-05-27T07:02:00.004+05:00

So it seems my shuttle point has become quite the happening spot. Yesterday there was a crowd that gathered at RTC Colony crossroads. I was as usual lost in my own world listening to music and waiting for my bus to come to take me to work. I realized that there was a cop car smack in the middle of the road and three cops were stopping the public randomly and then telling them to leave after sometime. To me it looked like they were getting their kicks out of playing with the public. More like mind games and picking on people. Ok! You go! No! You stop!

Anyway, a group of construction workers gathered and the cops immediately ran into their car and started yelling at the construction workers. All of a sudden the construction workers dispersed and there was a man with a stick who was hitting the ground. I was thinking he’s gone mad! What the hell is he hitting at?? I couldn’t see a damn thing!.... And then I saw it!...It was a HUGE snake! It goes without saying the guy with the stick beat the poor snake to death.

What amused me in this disgusting act was how the cops who were supposed to ‘protect and serve the public’ ran like there was no tomorrow to their car and yelled at people to kill it. There was one cop in particular, the stereotyped fat and lazy types who was yelling so badly to kill the snake it was almost a shriek.

It makes you wonder... WHY were the useless cops called to begin with is something I don’t understand. It was a snake damn it! Not a time bomb! The genius who called them should have gotten a bap on the head as well with that stick! The stupid cops did absolutely nothing to save the public and just strengthened my belief that they are good for nothing. What’s worse is that after ‘killing’ (it still looked very alive to me) the snake they just left it there! No one bothered to move it to the side or warn other people of the potential danger... I guess that’s the Indian public for you. Every man for himself!

How much I love thee! :)‏

2010-05-23T13:55:00.004+05:00

You came into my life

And took my breath away,

I look forward to being your wife,

Wishing together we shall stay.

The times we spent with each other,

More good than bad,

Will always be cherished

For this, I shall forever feel blessed and glad.

Knowing that you’re not here,

Makes my heart bleed with sorrow,

Not having you in my life is something I constantly fear,

I wait and anticipate for a call to hear from you…yesterday….today…tomorrow!

Barbie yet again!

2010-05-14T12:23:00.003+05:00

For the record...I am NOT obsessed with Barbie...Just came across this pic on the web when searching for something and made me wonder...I warn you...The pic ain't pretty...and uncensored!

Would parents let their daughters play with such a Barbie?